I've been dealing with a lot these past few weeks. I've lost my ability to walk without assistance, I lost the cat i tried so hard to save. In the end it was returned back to the hellhole I got her from because my cat mauled her and the person I had gotten her from had the law on their side. And it doesn't help that this person is my mo and she was using this to lie to people, talk shit (more than usual) behind my back, saying I stole her cat. It was her idea.

I suggested that the cat stay with a very good friend of mine that could give her everything a cat could want, and she took it badly. She won't even say 'I love you' to me. I don't have anyone in my physical life that I can talk about this shite to, I've tried and I never get any answers back. I feel so alone, yet like I have gotten myself into this place.

I just want this all to stop. I've faced ridicule from my mother for even being the youngest in the family, the entire family hates me. I've spent years believing I was the problem, that everything that I've done is wrong.

I'm so confused, I'm tired and honestly I feel worse than I've ever felt. I'm so done with this yet they won't stop until I'm gone or I am dead. I can't escape them, I've tried. I have no idea what to do.

I know the picture isn't good, I didn't draw it for other people I drew it for myself. It expresses how I feel right now.