"The wheel of time continues to spin forward, and all those things which has beginning unfortunately has an end too. Shortly after the 30 years long war just finished, the Town has begun to flourish again...I spent almost two years as Catholic Nun in the local cloister and I must to say there's been some of my most memorable days... I met there - by led the life mysteries - the fantastic intelligent medic Dr Alessio Felici and He was incredible as sarcastic interlocutor…We had some similar thougths about the material world, common intentions and interests, but the significant difference between us He was the person of the mind and science and I was the faith and heart instead...And the times has always changes and the life called me to serve the Lord on different way...I felt I was couldn't renewing the actual situations and I couldn't feed my continuous draconic curiosity for the knowledge there anymore...maybe I showed too much attention for mortal and secular relations and things with my stressfully and eccentric way...and also I heard some gossips about Bishop Lauscaux had some spies and he tried to keep our every step over his control...And Alessio felt it too...and he gave me a proper signs with his rigid but also gentle style... But I was too hotspur - as always - to listen anyone outside of the cloister...and the social relations turn colder day by day...I was like a star which one running out slowly from the hydrogen... I could not be obedient on that level as the situation should required...And the day has came when I got the permission to move in an another convent far from the bishopric... I met last time with the Dearest Person in the Town... I was took a visit at his favourite place...and he was there in time..I never wanted to hurt him but the best I could do for this young gentleman to leave his world...His soft heart inside the steel frame turned into ice cold and did not allow me to hug him...held my hands to push me away from him...His last words echoes in my ears forever : - Dearest Sister... Please don't touch me...the emotions makes this situation worse... Show yourself strong as you were so strong with your decisions behind my back...and promise me you will never stressing about relationships anymore…Stress can harms your textus muscularis striatus cardiacus... You better go now…-„

It's my own fantasies with Maitre Joker's fantastic Project Ask Monsieur Felici ...finally catalyzed this...

When I made this drawing I was thinking about some emotions have among us people universally...I perpetually try to become a better person, but sometimes hard to show our proper inner intentions...sometimes with our best will can hurt the persons are the most important for us... the internet can bring to us every single information about the world (sometimes too much... mostly if we are too curious) ...and we can reach here everyones, but sadly missing the soft details of the human emotions, voice, body language and really hard nut to writing correctly about our feelings...Sometimes it's just offer a comfortable distance - as a firewall - against the crazy humans ...just need to blocking the person or switch off the pc and we are free... Sometimes we are just too much for those ones who are important to us and sometimes we are too little for those ones who are really need us...What can makes the true friendship itself? The love, the goodwill, or to fight for each others? The common memories? To accept the beloved ones choices? Sometimes maybe looks no one appreciated our dreams or just the self defeatism forced to say this... I am so different in rl...but when I am in the world of the internet my super ego transformed and I follow so different laws ...and I just looking for the perfect moments...and if this illusion broke - because I am extreme fragile...and sometimes irascible and paranoid - from my mistake or by others all I want to do is escape from the world.. I don't want to be unfair (but sometimes I am...really hard to be loyal to our characters as weak human behind the surface)...I really don't like to repeat myself...and waste our short time for things that cannot works...We are all closed in our mind and no one can really understand us, and saddest in this fact we are so similar inside...and from thousands of kilometres or miles no one really give a physical soul hugs when we need......and we just chasing for false hopes... By the ages we all grown a shield and close ourselves behind this comfortable wall, but we must never forget life is a gift please never waste it...

Thanks for your reading ...and now time to looking for something constructive, different and new ...and forget the old :)

Please check this in the original size I do hope you will like the details ...It's my pencil work with my character....and the another is the talented  maitrejoker And he is one of the best artists here, please check his gallery...

Mood of music : MM - Mechanical animals, Holy Wood, PF - Wish you were here albums , Game of Thrones: Season 6 OST - Light of the Seven, Shawshank Redemption Theme, Inception Soundtrack - Dream is Collapsing, Radiohead - Burn the Witch, Omega - The Hall of Floaters in the Sky, Depeche Mode - Never Let Me Down