nope, it ain't

You got this.

Kyle, everyone goes through tough times. Nobody is accepted by everybody, most people aren't even accepted by a quarter. And life has more bad moments than good. It's not just you, it's just how life is, and it's a bit much to chew sometimes.

It's just most of the time it's me coming off too strong or just not really being that active in a friendship or anything. And I just don't understand how I can change myself to where I can be like everyone else. Yes I may not get what your talking about and I may not get what your saying but it's hard for me to adjust after putting up with it for so long.. I'm just so sorry

Kyle, there's no clear cut answer when it comes to maintaining relationships, because it's on a person-by-person basis. Giving you generalized answers would be incorrect. But I guess the best advice I can give is maybe just try to ease into relationships with people, maybe play games with them, chat some, find out what you have in common, and you know, take it from there. Keep in touch with the friends you already have, and don't go too deep into new ones too quickly.

Kyle, you're not going to solve what has been bothering you over a single night or two. In fact, it might not even be done in a fortnight, and you may not even notice when it's started getting better. Just be patient, and like I said before.. relax, just try to relax yourself and enjoy your time with friends. There's no reason to be sorry, and self pity never solved anything. Just take it easy, okay?

No, you're not alone on this. I myself has my doubts about how social I am which may affect how well known I am with people, or just feeling ignored. But I'm trying to improve myself, even if it takes time.
But taking your time is a good thing when it comes to things like this, because Rome wasn't built in one day.

your never alone

Just when ya think ya got it bad, someone ALWAYS has it worse.

Some times it's best to move forward, but that being said your not the problem.
I've been though this kind of stuff and I'm no expert but putting yourself down isn't going to help.

*hugs you*