This last Monday I got the most heartbreaking news. My sassy little princess Dusky, a kitty I've had for almost 10 years, passed away. From what dad told me it was peaceful, he's not sure what caused it, when he got home from work and found her it was already too late. She was barely breathing at all and was completely unresponsive. It might have been poison but we wouldn't know what. She had been a little lethargic but nothing close to bad enough to raise concern we had thought. I wish so fucking much that we had been more thorough. He was so afraid to call and tell me because he knew how much I loved her. I constantly asked how she was doing and she was doing so well, which is why it was such a shock. She had had a few medical problems in the past, but we had gotten them taken care of and she was doing great. Mom and dad were taking such good care of her for me. It's just been a really, really rough week, but I've been dealing with it.

Then last night my fucking wonderful best friend surprised me with this absolutely perfect picture. This means so damn much to me as he had just gotten to his vacation destination and upon hearing the bad news immediately started on this for me. He knew and loved Dusky, too and he just captured her so perfectly. She was so long from the tip of her pointy ears to her slender tail, but she was adorably fat at the same time. She had such a cute belly. She hated pictures so much, though and she would almost always close her eyes and would just look like a featureless blob (I'm not even kidding) so I only have 2 pictures of her. She could be so temperamental but she loved me so fucking much and I feel like such a large piece of me has gone with her, but this picture is a beautiful reminder that she's always here with me. <3 Thank you so much again for taking the time to draw this for me, Thunder Buddy. It means the world to me. <3

I'll probably be mostly doing personal art for a few days, but I'll gradually get back into the swing of things. Kiss all of your fur babies for me and give them great big hugs and just love and cherish them.

I'm going to miss you more than I could ever put into words, Dusky. There's so much I wish I could have done or done differently, anything at all. And for that I will forever feel so guilty. You deserved absolutely everything. but I'll see you again one day. <3 I love you so fucking much, you perfect little brat.


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