Hello my dearest reader. Thank you for honoring me with your presence once more and for lending me your eyes for this final piece of my story.

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This will be my last post of summer, it is time for me to return my attention to my studies and to the pile of homework I’ve been neglecting for the past weeks. I’ll return to my usual rhythm of publication, once a moth or twice at most. It was both fun and exhilarating to make so many pieces in so little time, not to mention the intensity of the confessions I made in these publications. Thank you Reader, for accompanying me on this walk into myself, now this account has become a little bit closer to my real ME.

To those who have contacted me during this summer, I am most grateful for the friendship you’ve given me. To those kind enough to read these words but haven’t wrote any note or comment, I hope that the time will come when we can become friends. Thank you so much for everything you’ve all done for me.

If you’ve been with me since part one, then you’ll remember that as a child and teenager I lacked pretty much any semblance of “self-love”. No one who sees himself as unlikable or who thinks that only by making himself useful to others can he escape solitude can claim to feel any self-love.

Worst of all, when people actually liked me I lashed against them, “if they liked someone as flawed as me they must be as flawed as me, or even worst”, I would tell myself. Only when someone accepted all my lashes and flaws I became aware that I was worthy of being liked and loved, and that moment became a turning point in my life.

I left my engineering studies that had reached a point of stagnation, and began studying psychology. Of course my parents weren’t thrilled by this idea, as I would lose all the time I had invested in my career (not to mention the money that had been spent), I had made up my mind. If I stayed I would had been a mediocre engineer at best who hated his job, but as a psychologist I would be someone passionate about his every action, even if I was not the best psychologist.

I had lost my fear to normalcy, all I wanted to do was to feel like my life had a purpose, and every fiver of my heart was convinced that psychology would allow me to find and achieve that purpose, to this day I am still convinced and more determined than my 4 years ago self.

Today I look back and see the many people who have brought me here, I owe my life to all of them, and I owe to myself making something of their efforts. It is my goal as a future psychologist to offer a service to my fellow humans on this world, and to provide them with a safe and accepting environment, (a second womb) where we can meet the parts of themselves that make them feel unlikable or unworthy of love. Just like I was rescued before damming myself to hell, I wish to provide others with a similar safety net.

I wish to be a gardener for people’s soul, nurturing their ability for self-love and nourishing the seeds of gratitude as they blossom into a radiant and divine human being; one that accepts its many facets and flaws, while understanding that they don’t deny the many virtues that grow and expand within.

Perfection is boring dear reader. It’s useful to pursue ir, but it’s impossible to reach it. Only by understanding that humans are complex creatures that are lovable and enraging, tender and rough, virtuous and sinful, saint and devilish, all at the same time can we truly see the divinity shining out of their every pore.

And now I’ll share some of my favorite anime characters of my present, the ones that have been the most important to me during these past 12 months.

Fisrt we have the Kusuriuri from “Mononoke” and the last episodes of “Ayakashi japanese classic horror”, being cosplayed here by Altor.

This mysterious character hunts down mononoke, ghosts given form by human emotions and that can only be defeated when their form, reason and griefs have been discovered.

Behind him we find on the far left Decim from Death parade, a series that confronts people with their deaths and the many ways to face our own mortality.

In the middle I drew Koro sensei from “Assassination Classroom”, he tough me many things as I watched the series, he’s the kind of character that makes you want to be a teacher, but I guess his most valuable lesson is once again the ephemeral nature of our lives and our world, everything will come to an end whether we like it or not, so it’s better if we do our best during the time we have on this delightful hell we call earth.

Last but most certainly not least, Yato from “Noragami”. A delightful series that updates the Shinto mythos while trying its best to tackle problems of parenthood. This series shows how scary it can be to let your children grow up and face the world on their own, but despite the best intentions of our parents, not being able to let go causes more harm to everyone than good. Children are more capable than we give them credit for, and by trusting in them we give them room to spread out their wings.