my friend's mother always ask how my family is back home and how our relationship is, and I always tell her that everything is great.
nothing is great, and this is how it always ends up when I try talking to my mom.
my parents still don't really know who i am, and every time i try to bring up my personal issues they tell me to think about how saying such things makes THEM feel or that their "son" doesn't really want to be that, they ignore it and stop texting back. I'm too afraid to press the issue as soon as my mother says i'm making her feel sad.
I'm so tired.
nothing is great, and this is how it always ends up when I try talking to my mom.
my parents still don't really know who i am, and every time i try to bring up my personal issues they tell me to think about how saying such things makes THEM feel or that their "son" doesn't really want to be that, they ignore it and stop texting back. I'm too afraid to press the issue as soon as my mother says i'm making her feel sad.
I'm so tired.
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I'm sorry things are going poorly in your personal life. I'm just a stranger but just wanted to say you've got a lot of talent and it would make me and I"m sure others happy to continue seeing your art.
Hope this brightens your day a little.
Also, that's not even good for either. You can't tell them how you feel, and you will either feel repressed or feel bad for acting upon your feelings without your parents supporting you. :/
Life's gonna always have these oppressive and overwhelming, intensely mind-boggling moments. These kinda things'll get to everyone, no one's impervious to em'. Even IF you're having a hard time, regardless of the situation, you'll always have people who're there for you! Parents are an iffy bunch..there's good, and there's bad..They have just as many fears and weaknesses as a being with a sense of emotion would have -- you, me, anyone you know. Feelings, understanding, fear, stress/strain, happiness, these emotions ARE what make us..Well, us. A parent makes a large commitment when raising a child. Let alone following through their life and taking the time they have to give it to someone they made, or raised, or cared for. When a kid and parent talk, there'll be some unease or fear on the topics you're probably touching up on..But if the thought of "They don't care" is ever crossing your mind, nix that out -- They care, they do respond back. If they back away or hesitate to respond to personal stuff, or respond in weird manners like you're experiencing..They're just scared, like you.
Take it slowly. It's not something that'll get spoke about in a single night..take it at a pace they'd be willing to undergo. They've given a lot, it's probably..confusing enough for me to say 'give some time back to them'. They're probably as insecure as any of us are, honestly! Until then, you've got EVERYONE else around you. I'm not 100% sure how you'll take this from a stranger (you know, eeeeeverything I said). But I mean it in a way that can at least tell you to keep on trying, and you've always got people around who're willing to take time out of their life to give it to ya'!
I dunno if you'll be interested, but hey -- i'm always around to talk and listen. Just send me a message. If you ever need someone who'll listen and do their best to help ya'feel secure and happy, i'm always around! Even though I wouldn't class us as friends, i'll treat you as one even if i'm not considered such. Others happiness is much more important to me. So if you need to chat, just say hey. I'm happy to be around for ya'! Keep positive, you've got my shoulder if it helps. If you read this far CONGRATULATIONS good lord I talk way too fucking much ᶦ'ᵐˢᵒʳʳʸ
i hope you can find someone to support you, you're one of my fave artists and it hurts to see you like this. i do hope the best for you