I don't know why but i feel really low, and starting to feel disconnected from people. I'm having a hard time talking to my mom and friends even my boyfriend. I'm losing interest in lots of things i know i love. maybe it's cause i have no job or maybe cause I'm constantly reminded i have no money, i need to grow up, drop this mysterious and quite frankly none existent attitude. I just feel hurt, damaged, and haunted with these things i want them to go away. when i talk to my mom it normally hi a few things a couple awkward laughter's then we go on our ways then when else where it's just did you apply her did you apply there. I don't like this feeling at all i don't know if it's depression or guilt or just aging but it feels bad and wrong i want to cry but at the same time i don't cause then I'll be bugged to death with are you ok when i just can't talk about how i really feel when she knows so little of me... i tried telling her my problems but i choke all the time and make a crappy cookie coated version of what really going on. sorry for wasting everyone time the TL:DR version of this is this, i feel bad and don't know what to do.