Me playing a song I just wrote. It's about sex, love, and not knowing what you want.

Lyrics:

Last night was a complete disaster
I heard your head against the plaster
Never look at you the same
There’s different meaning in your name
And the world just keeps moving around me faster

Million thoughts all in my head
How many times had I misread
The little things you said to me
While I was convinced it couldn’t be
And now we’re not much better off than dead

So tonight I’ll drink myself to sleep
And hope I’ll forget why when morning comes
It’s so much easier to keep
A clear head when my heart is going numb
I promise I don’t think of you that way
I promise if I did I’d say

I just don’t know what to think
I try to drown you out with drink
But it doesn’t seem to knock you out
It all winds up in my mouth
It only turns my face a deeper pink

I know I’ll have to work it out
Decide just what I’m all about
But the only thing I can recall
Is you behind that bedroom wall
Shaking out my worries and my doubts

Keep on doing what you do
The way I feel, it’s got
Nothing to do with you

Two weeks later, still the same
Still feel shitty, nothing’s changed
Bound to want what I can’t get
Never able to forget
Dying every time I hear your name

I feel like I should not permit
The little twinge of love that hits
When our eyes meet across the room
It’s just a passing glance to you
But to me there must be something more to it