this symbolise me - the lion part of myself that died few days because...well....
I found someone dear to me.... however it was...and in fact, is very one-sided (I don't know for sure if that person still want to be 'friends' with me or not.... but I think... hope he will)
I created an unpenetrable 'distance' between ourselves and I hope that I will hold my feelings on a short leash not to destroy that little bit of trust we share....

so yes, I decided that lion part of me will just simply die, and it jumped from the roof (suicide! yay!)