This was inspired by something that happened to me just a few hours from the time this was posted.

I got my heart broken when a guy I was having a notes conversation with kept telling me that he loved me and would never do anything to hurt me suddenly blocked me.

We talked with each other for quite a while but then... Just this morning when I woke up and wanted to reply to him... I suddenly got a prompt that I was blocked from his account. Of course I tried again and even visited his account but then... His status changed over night from single to taken and he just blocked me without reason...

Even though I told him I was fragile... He still did it. I would have accepted things better it he just said something before blocking me and we could have just became friends.

For the whole day I was depressed. My chest was tight and hurting. My mind was blank and couldn't think anything past what happened, and just did my work like a robot and without coherent thoughts.

I kept asking myself if I did something wrong... If I was too slow and stupid as to why I shut my intuition and kept telling it to shut up when it raised red flags about the guy... I just had to get my hopes up and open my heart... He kept telling me everything was going to be alight and right. And that I was the one he was looking for... He sounded like a real Dom... He sounded genuine...

So by the end of the day, I drew this to remind myself of those things...

Ark... Why are you so stupid and so gullible!?!?

But I've forgiven the guy though... Coz to him, it's all just fun and games telling someone you love them and shut them out when he finds someone else. It was his plan. And he executed it perfectly to get himself a good person that would hopefully get him some watcher points. It was in his nature and was his only intent... He never meant for anything else.

Things like these are unavoidable in life so I just picked up as much pieces of what's left of my heart and started fixing it. For a whole week I've been hurting but that last one took the cake. So I won't bother playing with anyone else.

But don't worry though, I still have hope in me to continue on. I know that person who will love me for real is still out there. The guy who broke my heart just showed me what the real world of douches actually was.

All my life I've only been hurting. I never experienced love from either my family or friends. They all think I'm too weird. They all think I'm just a bother. And no one practically loves me. So imagine my surprise when someone declared their love for me and for days tried to win me over and in the end... Just used me...

Seriously though. It hurt like a bîtch! -__-

So please, next time go easy on me. I'm not some toy to be played with and just ignore when you've found a shinier new one...

And like I've said, I already forgave him so I won't disclose his name unless I am threatened so... Yeah... That's dangerous bro.

Also it's kind of ironic that "I Was Made For Loving You" by Tori Kelly ft. Edd Sheeran popped on the radio that morning... Frekin weird. It was the first time I heard the song so don't blame my stupidity! It's already doing a good job. Lol XD

Yes I've gotten over it and I love the song BTW. Would have correlated with our love story if it was real, but then it would sound too disgustingly corny. And yes... I'm learning the art of the frozen heart. I had hope for my account but it died along with my quirkiness and joy. For now...