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Years ago I was told to draw draw what I feel...
I'm gonna explain why I've unwatched everyone from both of my FA profiles, not because of the amazing arts.
But because of Journals.
Sure I can just skip reading journals, but it's really difficult to unsee when journals are named "going to that and that cons", "Best con ever" etc.. so this picture explains why I've had to remove everyone, not because I wanted to, but because I had to, each con, each year, I'm dying to go to.. it's just very difficult, for a person with social anxiety, depressions, trust issues, suffering from agoraphobia, etc. to even attend cons alone, or simple can't afford, or are not able to go to that area...
There are so many things that keeps me from going to cons.
1. Money
2. No one to go with
3. No fursuit (I know I can go without one, but tell that to a person with low self esteem and social anxiety, it's not that simple showing themselves)
4. Easily getting lost
5. Afraid of big cities
6. Afraid of not being accepted
I had to remove everyone to avoid seeing those con journals every year which just bothers my jealousy and envy issues beyond my limits, I really really want to go but I just can't...
I know I'll be told "You'll be able to somewhere in the future don't worry"
It's really not that easy, for each of the same con, I grow 1 year older.
I've been dying to go to a con since I watched the first furry con video years ago...
And I'm still here, 22 years old, too afraid to leave his room, con after con goes by, in the end it's too late...
My anxiety is just getting worse by each cons and journals...
I'll say it flat out, I hate cons, not the con itself, but because I can't go to those cons.
I hate that the happiness is there and not here with me.
I mean no harm.
I know I'm not the only person that is suffering from this, there are many others, this drawing is for all of you.
And I just really really wish..
to go to a con and have the time of my life...
Thanks for taking your time to read...
If you got emotional, watch this amazing animation music video by Cerberus/Tirrel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-atRsitNsY
I'm gonna explain why I've unwatched everyone from both of my FA profiles, not because of the amazing arts.
But because of Journals.
Sure I can just skip reading journals, but it's really difficult to unsee when journals are named "going to that and that cons", "Best con ever" etc.. so this picture explains why I've had to remove everyone, not because I wanted to, but because I had to, each con, each year, I'm dying to go to.. it's just very difficult, for a person with social anxiety, depressions, trust issues, suffering from agoraphobia, etc. to even attend cons alone, or simple can't afford, or are not able to go to that area...
There are so many things that keeps me from going to cons.
1. Money
2. No one to go with
3. No fursuit (I know I can go without one, but tell that to a person with low self esteem and social anxiety, it's not that simple showing themselves)
4. Easily getting lost
5. Afraid of big cities
6. Afraid of not being accepted
I had to remove everyone to avoid seeing those con journals every year which just bothers my jealousy and envy issues beyond my limits, I really really want to go but I just can't...
I know I'll be told "You'll be able to somewhere in the future don't worry"
It's really not that easy, for each of the same con, I grow 1 year older.
I've been dying to go to a con since I watched the first furry con video years ago...
And I'm still here, 22 years old, too afraid to leave his room, con after con goes by, in the end it's too late...
My anxiety is just getting worse by each cons and journals...
I'll say it flat out, I hate cons, not the con itself, but because I can't go to those cons.
I hate that the happiness is there and not here with me.
I mean no harm.
I know I'm not the only person that is suffering from this, there are many others, this drawing is for all of you.
And I just really really wish..
to go to a con and have the time of my life...
Thanks for taking your time to read...
If you got emotional, watch this amazing animation music video by Cerberus/Tirrel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-atRsitNsY
Category All / All
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Awwww... Poor little guy. If it's any consolation, I found FA to be the closest thing to a "Furry Con On Line" as compared to other sites. It also might please you to know I recently was introduced to the works of Tirrel, (Cerberus by a friend here on FA, and the piece you included in the link is one of my favorites. Now if I'm not mistaken, the "Fursonas" of several key participants here on the site appear in the video.
I can associate pretty well with what you write because I also had sociophobia and self-esteem issues several years ago. For one, the most important thing i recommend anyone with depression and self-esteem issues is to confront your fears and go out as much as you can. Going to a (short) con or furry meetup can be good opportunities for that and it was in my case. It certainly means mental stress in the beginning and having to dare to talk to people which includes the possibility of them rejecting or hurting you with words. But the more you do it the more comfortable will you get to talk to strangers and the less personal will you take rejection.
Concerning the Journals - or social media in general - people love to display themselves in an exaggerated positive way and even though Cons certainly have the potential to be a great way to spend your time you should always take social media content with a grain of salt. You get a very one-sided view in social media... I for one reject it altogether (Facebook >.>) because I can't stand people publicly displaying themselves as perfect beings while when you know them in private you realize they are just normal flawed persons like everyone else.
Either way: The only person that can and will help you with such things is yourself, and no-one but yourself. People writing comments to a submission may make you feel easier but overcoming sociophobia can only be done by you. Good luck
Concerning the Journals - or social media in general - people love to display themselves in an exaggerated positive way and even though Cons certainly have the potential to be a great way to spend your time you should always take social media content with a grain of salt. You get a very one-sided view in social media... I for one reject it altogether (Facebook >.>) because I can't stand people publicly displaying themselves as perfect beings while when you know them in private you realize they are just normal flawed persons like everyone else.
Either way: The only person that can and will help you with such things is yourself, and no-one but yourself. People writing comments to a submission may make you feel easier but overcoming sociophobia can only be done by you. Good luck
Yeah I agree, but the problem is that I live in a nomans land, a city with only 20 thousand people and no furries here or any for miles and miles away, all the furries live in southern Norway, barely anyone in northern so it makes it really difficult to go to any cons or especially meetings as they barely happen in Norway.
But yeah, I am the only one who can fix this issue, it's why I haven't gone to a psychiatrist which I've been told too many times to go to.
People thinks it will help but it won't because I know my own position too well.
But yeah, I am the only one who can fix this issue, it's why I haven't gone to a psychiatrist which I've been told too many times to go to.
People thinks it will help but it won't because I know my own position too well.
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