As I said in a previous journal. My grandpa had died, he commited suicide by overdose and I was not given a chance to say my final goodbyes. there was no funeral, there was no service. My grandma had him cremated and by the end of the week he will be heading back to ontario to rest with his family. The only way I could say goodbye was by sending this guardian angel to watch over him. Guardian Azmeath. A Holy spear simply named "Guiding Light" Given that the blade resembles a simple flame to pierce the darkness in more than one way. Rest in Peace grandpa bill. Though I never got to say goodbye..you will be missed...even if we will never know what drove you to suicide.