So I'm done...
only reason it's done now is...
i'm broken and needed to keep my tears and suicidal thought away
Things in resent times just showed me how much this is true

I (Metalus) was never meant to have friends or love or anything
I was just meant to be here alive and ready to be either used or abused
each time i forget that one part, I only hurt myself

In the animation you can see when i was down and in pain...
no one comforted me I was slowly abandoned and left alone
I then made my own friend, a split personality
many might know him as Syleron and showed as a Sergal
But he covered me breaking me away from everything
making a world where it's just me and him

That is how i live each day of my life....
cover the pain away so I don't kill myself
but
in the end i still wish I was dead at this point anyway

The song that goes with this animation is
Porter Robinson - Goodbye To A World
Youtube version:
https://youtu.be/54iBknHBT1g