This is so beautiful, Paula. ;~; I miss her too...Especially now. The holidays have been SO fucking hard. I keep feeling like I want to call her and talk to her about what I'm going through because that's what I always did for so many years...it just boggles my mind still. Even after 4 months, it still doesn't feel real. I have dreams wherein I wake up with a start, but then am relieved to realize that everything in the last year had just been a terrible nightmare. And I call Alex and Jolyn and just tell them how much I love them and how glad I am that they're ok. And then I wake up for real and when I realize that this hasn't all just been the worst nightmare I've ever had, I get that sinking feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach all over again and can't help but break down. 😞 I'm sorry I haven't reached out to you more, honey. I've wanted to, but I've been so soul crushingly depressed that I can hardly get the motivation to get out of bed in the morning. And when I get like this, I isolate when really I should be reaching out to people. Just know that you're not alone. I'm always here if you ever want to talk, lady. I love you so many bunches and I'm thinking of you this holiday. <3

the horrible-but-also-less-horrible thing is how many people feel her loss. we're not alone, and though that is not the same thing as still having our friend it's... something.

I've had several dreams with Jolyn in them and it's just sort of strange to me. It's not as if my life has been lossless but something about Jolyn passing is just so much harder to deal with.

I keep coming back to this hoping that maybe I'll have words this time, and I'm determined to actually comment. As always, your marker work is really smooth and pleasant to look at, all lovingly blended and carefully laid. The sweet field of flowers is a nice touch, I like the colours you chose. I really love the composition, how the two curving lines of the faces almost meet. Your little tum. The paws. How sweet the expressions are. I like the little hints of fur shading on SW's face, all the little details like the whiskers above your eyes.

I have to say it. "Kitty has, like, six nipples." I still hear that in my head and think of you every time cat nipples come up, and I'm not sure why. Did you say it once? You must have. :P

I'm glad you finished this. I know it was hard, and I relate to that. Hope you're doing a little better.
Love you, always here if you need me. <3

<3 This came out beautiful. ::hugs::