-has no work flow and no consistent work times for art, instead he wastes his time with random media and ends up only drawing at the most inconvenient times like during long boring classes, in this case 4 hours of nothing but following presentations of other class mates cause he'required to from his crappy study that he doesn't like but feels forced to do anyway.
That's what I represent for myself, at least the first part, a big failure at everything I do and still not improving.
It's going better with study though I worry now cause I have to work together with other people on a project and I'm worried about if I do enough and if the others get everything done now. I also wonder what I'm even working towards, we got through all the main theoretical materiel for it now just the practical info and work after my single week of Christmas vacation. It seems so pointless all.
Even though I did a lot better with the last class and family issues finally got a bit less after my younger brother started to live on his own I still feel like I'm missing out. Like I'm working towards nothing. My ambition is in art but that's never taken off anywhere.
The thing I miss the most is to be around others that have the same interests, do the same thing, draw furry art in whichever way really though preferably something close to what I like to draw. But that only happens once every year during Eurofurence, and that's a really big event with a lot happening.
I do enjoy that a lot of others can view and enjoy my art but it's not really the same as drawing with or for someone that I would be hanging out with at that moment.
At least I've realized that drawing better usually doesn't get you new friends, something I notice some artists still struggle with. I would say to that realize that a artist is still a person, even if they are astronomical miles better than you in drawing that doesn't mean you can't talk to them like you could talk to anyone else. Find common interests, not common qualities.