every day's a struggle when you watch your life wash away
I can't believe all these things that I did in the name of love 
so I sit hear clutching this bottle in my hand in silence of the day
I wonder how we can go on in this life, 
you lied to me when you said you'd be my wife!
and now I sit here and cry, wondering why I did all the things that did in this life.
you don't understand my pain, even if you lived in my game (of life.)


you will never understand how much I cared for you.
or all of things I did for you, I love you don't you understand why I bought that "ring" for you?
... but I guess the Diamonds where never enough for you...
I f***ing loved you more than a "ring" or any "diamonds" 
that's why you steal wear them today and I don't even say...


I wish you didn't act like don't exist
I know I'm like a lemon twist, or a naughty Barry but I just really love you, you treated me good before
but now I don't know why I'm a phantom to you?
I know I was "trouble" to you. but I loved you!


it just seems every day is a struggle just to find something new.
but I don't want something new, I just want to be with you
but you forgotten me and my love and Devotion for you.
I might just be a pervert in your eyes but your the love of my life, sue me I'm only Human.


I just watch you guys fly by well I'm stuck on start and do not pass go.
you do't even know how far I'll go...
it's been 3 years and I still have to wipe my tears...
you have given me all of these fears.


what do I do I can't tell anyone's lies
will I keep getting hurt and betrayed by my self?
will I be able to call there bluff?
or will I continue this cycle of/or abuse?


I don't think they know how I feel
let the rain come down on me and wash me away 
let me get cold, I'm already dead on the inside.
but still my heart wrenches with pain


so I ask again why was it so important for you to break me down.
you took my life away
you took my dreams away
you killed my motivation 


why did I buy a "ring" for you when it was to much "trouble" for you?
you don't know why I did that for you?
I still love you the same and you forgot about me and why you wear that "ring"...
I should have known that the Diamonds wouldn't have been enough for you...

I fucking loved you.

~ JFoxx