SO this originally was just a sketch to test out my new tablet, and it turned into a memorial pic for my rat, who died recently.

My tablet has recently died, so i was like FFFFUUUUUUUUUUU and freaked out, so i was a fucking retard and spent my money reserves on a new one. And also i fixed my car, so now i am totally broke. :( but tablet! Hopefully worth it!
IT's a wacom bamboo. i had a graphire3, and i am tres sad that the graphire series is dead. getting used to the new tablet, which is why this is so sketchy.

also, this was intended just to be a doodle, but it turned into something i spent over four hours on. D:

my rattie in wisconsin died recently-- she was old, about 2, and a petshop girl. I had gotten her with my ex, and i missed her a lot, so i was really distraught when he called me to tell me she'd died.
The second half of her life i wasn't involved that much, sadly-- my ex had asked to keep the pets, which in retrospect was good because I ended up living in my car for awhile. I stopped by to visit during that time, quite frequently, but it's still not the same as being with them all the time. D: and then i came back to MD, originally to visit, but the visit ended up being very very prolonged... so yeah.

what bothers me most si that i was not there. D:

the anatomy of this is fucked, because by the time i started treating it seriously, i was far past the stage where i address anatomy issues. D: SO FOR THE PURPOSES OF THIS PICTURE, nessbeast's neck and upper arms are THREE FUCKING FEET LONG. bwahahahahahahahahahahaha,

MAJOR THANKS TO DOOWA, HULLY AND A BUNCH OF OTHER AWESOME FGTS FOR SHADING CRITS! srsly. my crit buddies are autowin.

i forgot to mention, i'm a fucking dick and fucked up the file image. D: so i am done. I was messing with it and had forgotten to save the shading edits, and then ctrl-s'd, so i saved a very edited version.. i'm pretty pissed at me about that.
:(