Since I was little and my chest began to develop my mom made it super clear to me we have tons of breast cancer in our blood and MANY of my aunts and grand parents suffered or passed away from breast cancer or treatments from it. My breasts are particularly large and actually very tender and sore all the time. Because of the constant pains I always fret about it in the back of my mind. I often find myself fantasizing over having a flat chest, no breasts at all. But at the same time to go through such a procedure especially with healthy tissue is pretty frowned upon. Plus I would hate to be any more destructive with my body than it already is with itself and the chronic illnesses... Trying to preserve what healthy time and body I have left.

So I saw this character that elfkit had made and put up for offers and immediately fell in love with them. Just head over heels. I've been sitting here staring at them and thinking to myself they honestly are some of my ideals I picture of myself. So I decided to kinda roll with this idea in my head that they're a late twenties female who has already had the mastectomy surgery and survived treatments. Just to kind of help me create a bridge that I'm comfortable with and allows me to look at these things without panic inducing anxiety and learn about this possibility in my life before it happens, if it does. There is a good shot I might be just fine too since my mother and sisters both haven't shown any signs. Then again I'm the weakest and most disabled family member so I just assume the worst of everything will happen to me. lol

So this is going to be a comfort character for sure. I'm not sure if I nailed down her colors yet, but I followed all the marking patterns of the original and just sd;h ljflh I LOVE HER SO MUCH! I want to draw her visiting with doctors and being happy and bartending~ Reading in the park or just enjoying the breeze.. I just want to draw their everyday life and show them, myself, life keeps going. That it's okay to be different if I have to be later on.

Haha... probably too person for you all, just... stuff I think about a lot.

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Where you can find AJ!

★ [ DeviantArt ] - [ FurAffinity ] - [ Weasyl ] ★
★ [ 18+ Tumblr ] - [ Twitter ] - [ ToyHouse ] - [ Patreon ] ★

Interested in commissioning me? Here are some helpful links.

★ [ CloverCoin.com ] - [ Terms of Service ] - [ Commission Guide and Prices ] - [ Work Queue: CloverCoin / Flipside ] ★


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