...is insane.

You don't know what this means but I do. I thought that maybe if I expressed myself no matter how anxious I feel, I might be able to reflect upon it. Hell, maybe even take steps to overcoming it. Unless you're some kind of genius or can somehow hear the voices in my head, I don't think it's possible to analyze.

It's a self-fulfilling prophecy, a paradox: I want to be creative to escape from my anxiety, but creativity is the very thing that I'm so anxious about...