Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin

What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love

Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand
But I keep living this day like the next will never come

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Lately, due to my aches and just life in general, I've been a crabby bastard. This picture is for my boyfriend Ash, a sort of "I'm sorry I have a chronic case of dickheadedness." When you're a jerk to those you love, it eats away at you and hurts you, too.

But yeah, this isn't emo or angst, our relationship is.. well, blissful besides my occasional fits of douchebaggyness, it's just one of my ways of showing I care.

Besides that, I wasn't aching as bad last night so I started this also as an experiment, to see if I'm still able to do things I used to be capable of. Each color, such as our skin, Ash's hair, brown shirt, my clothing, the different stripe sleeve colors, etc, were painted in Painter 5 individually on a 1kx1k canvas, then pasted into place with Photoshop. Then I used brushes I created and some I downloaded eons ago to texturize further, and some of it is just hand-done texturing with the brush.

Weirdly I'm most happy with the fact that I got our skintones spot on, and my hand/arm is accurate. Lol.