...sometimes you feel stuck in an open space, surrounded by life, but still somehow, we are all alone.
Scared, left with ourselves and our destructive thoughts
The ones we care most for don't understand and dismiss it
"you aren't alone" "why do you feel like this" "but you're having fun!"

A smile doesn't mean you're automatically cured from something so cruel as Anxiety...depression
you're afraid for no reason
nervous for no reason
sad, angry...
you may start to have fun, smile and laugh along
but it's always there
the dread
the chest numbing
the ache in your body...
the urge to run, to cry, to stop everything around you
It's there and always will be

We mask these things with smiles and good fortune
but what you don't see is through that mask...
we're dying inside.


Just a little vent i did. I have had these lines done for a while and yesterday i was glad for it because i could get right to the point and color it how i knew i finally wanted to.
i needed something last night and idk, i have mixed feelings about things right now haha.

Don't worry im fine ^_^ i just felt like i needed something to express this feeling i had...