I don't really know who you are but I know that feeling. So I offer you a hug and support. *hugs*

thanks *hugs back*

And here it's 4am and I'm still in front of my computer writing code...

...To be honest, I could easily compare to this feeling. Trying to build the courage to face the fears of the real world are as intimidating as hell to me.... In many cases, being online for websites like this, or even for something like video games (mostly PSN related), I feel I could hangout with people who I feel comfortable with because it would involve something I know I'm comfortable with as well. And many reasons to my current feelings all result with one condition: Autism.
They think it's easy to fight, but to me, it's beyond overwhelming....

Well its mostly bullying at school that sticked to me and made me scared of people to this day

The same thing very well happened to me... I was picked on mercilessly because of my personality, other people thinking I was the "crazy kid," all because my imagination led me to bizarre antics. But the whole reason I was acting like that... was only because I wanted to make friends who liked me for who I am, because I was trying fill what felt like a massive fracture in my soul... for something happened when I was really young... but I REALLY don't want to talk about it... not yet, at least....

Its okay i didn't ask for you to talk about it anyway, but if you need to talk i'm here, im always up for meeting a new furry friend who has a rough past like me, and well i was the same way, i would act crazy i would do silly thing because i tought being funny would make me friends, but it never worked they were just making fun of me, then as i grew up i went into my rebelious state, thinking acting cool would make me friends, i was wrong again, people started hating me instead of finding me weird, i ended up giving up all together and dropped out at 15, recently came back at school...

Well... this may seem simple to some, but to me, it was beyond unbelievable when I learned the truth eventually....
My father had left me when I was only 3-years old, leaving me, my older brother, and our mother behind: my mother was struggling just to keep us in appropriate living conditions, but most of all, she was worried about who would look after us, so that was another struggle....
But those details aside, nowadays, I'm beginning to question my father's understanding to my existence, period. He gets mad at my older brother for forgetting to wish him happy holidays of the sorts, but doesn't even think about me? Hell, I rarely even get phone calls from my father just for him to wish me any of that, let alone anything for my birthday... I'm just gonna simply say, I'm beginning to wonder if my own father even remembers me anymore....

Sadly some people are not so lucky with their father *hug* mine moved out a few hours away from me and talks to me like once every few months, i live with my mom alone but omg she love me... she has spoiled me all my life while my dad would just make me sad all the time

I hope you all get better days. "life to rough"

You've held on a damn long time already, man, you're made of tough stuff and I'm proud of how you're coping

It's a shame some people don't really understand that there are real world friends you talk to online that help and support you :/

Mais non, c'est pas vrai. T'es une personne superbe et ne laisse personne de dire le contraire.