Here it is, I just did what I promised to do, I'm not making excuses, so I made this drawing because I feel pressured to do it anyway, but I was fixing my life in relation to my psychological health, and I planned on still thinking that I would draw all the drawings that I am still owing when I get better, and then give time to my artistic life with the drawings until I decide right what I want to do because music has influenced me lately in my life. I tried to warn that I am without a computer and I said that if I drew on the paper it would go badly done, but still the person insisted that he wanted and did not want to know and anyway I just did the way I could, my nankin was defective so some traits came out badly so do not judge me, the Rimskiy who asked me to do it anyway so I did and that's what you asked for, that was my best I could do in those complicated times of my life.

And Rimskiy, I will say something about the Japanese society. I'm not giving a damn if the disease is not an excuse for me to have gained weight, it's not my fault that I have a life of shit, and of course this does not mean that I'm not doing anything to lose weight, this is psychological and it takes time, and my doctor is already helping me in this, I'm not going to stop being who I am to fit into a society full of control to become a machine, and I'm not a single Japanese who says that, I know a lot more and I know the reality, but even then they live well without needing to stop being what they are and I'm going to remain steadfast in this battle as a warrior for my dream and my life, and never be excessively controlled, because I am human and not a machine, I have feelings and my ways of believing in what is positive, I will not fall apart for any negative reality that is in Japan, Japan It's my home and I really don't give a shit if I have to adjust to a society just to be well accepted and kill my soul and my essence inside, I will never do it, I will never be a machine, neither in Brazil nor in Japan and nor in any fucking place.

I'd rather be hated for what I am than be loved for what I am not.

Rimskiy Roo © himself

Artwork by © Satihiko Fujihara