lately ive been feeling so down.. Im freaking out over about college next year and where im gonna live in a month.. my dorming ends next month after my birthday and I m just scared.. i guess? I cry and cry.. i really wish I had at least one parent in my life.. I get so emotional in school when people talk to their parents during school or what they do..and I'm just alone.. I have my s/o but i doubt i will be able to live with him and his ma unless i get a job.. which is hard because i am not on my medication at all.. and its hard.. its just so hard.. im so tired