So a few weeks ago, I had been given the sad news that one of my closer relatives had passed away due to throat cancer. This is probably the closest member in my family that I have had pass. The others who passed were members I had never met and never had a personal connection with. So this is my very first loss with someone that I had gotten to know and bonded with quite well.

When I first heard, I held back tears fairly well. I am not one who usually expresses my emotions for the world to see. And I don't like crying. So I held it back for so long. Then I saw in my local paper the obituary just 2 days ago... and... I broke down. All the time I was holding back had all come out all at once.

Now, I am not here asking for pity comments. I don't want them. I am doing well and fine now and come to terms with it all. I am simply here to say:

No matter what kind of person you are, whether you're an open book or a secluded loner. Gentle flower or hardened beast. Don't be afraid to cry. It's much better to get the emotions out. If you don't they'll take you over slowly to a point where you'll either break down crying or get angry and snap at people for no reason. I was fortunate enough to be somewhat normal while it was building up inside me, but I have seen friends who hold it in and snap at everyone. And it never ends well for anyone. So, if you find yourself in this situation. Just cry and if you have a close friend you can talk to about it. Then do that as well.

So.. yeah, just figured I'd share because my uploads suddenly went out for a while, but now that I am doing better, uploads should be normal and coming back soon