I'm sorry, Krankster. Feeling lonely is awful, and feeling alienated from everyone else truly sucks.

I know what I'm going to say is of no help at all and will probably be irritating as all hell, but other people do feel this same way too. Even if you don't think so...even if they don't show it in a way that you can see. Everyone feels like this, at least some of the time.

When you feel like this all the time, it's awful and horrible and I know it. People need to feel connection to others, human and furry alike.

Somewhere in your world, there is someone who is feeling this too. Someone else who feels exactly this way. See if you can find them and reach out to them... even a little bit, and even for a little while. There are times (and I know this well) when a smile from a stranger, or a quick few words from someone you don't even know but who acknowledges your existence, can transform your world and save your life.

One night, when I felt I just couldn't take it any more and I wanted so badly to just have it all over with, I went out on a walk because I was desperate and couldn't think of anything else to do. I was walking by a house where I didn't know anyone (I didn't know anyone in that neighborhood) and there was a guy outside, talking on his cell phone. As I went by, he broke away from his cell convo and said something like: "Hi. How 're you?" Just nothing social talk, but to me, right at that moment, it was everything because it meant that another human being was acknowledging my existence. I was so startled I stopped and said: "Are you talking to me?" He said he was, said it was a nice night for a walk, I agreed that it was a nice night for a walk, and then I went on and he went back to his conversation...but that night that guy, and those few simple words, changed my life because he offered to me human connection at the very moment when I needed it the very most.

Find someone in your world to say "Hi" to. Find someone who needs your momentary attention, whose life you can transform by just saying a few words of simple, "meaningless" social chit-chat...simple words which may have unbelievably immense impact because they implicitly say: as one worthy creature to another, I acknowledge your existence and I offer you my respect.

You may save a life...and, regardless of how the other responds, the life you really save may be your own.

I'll be thinking of you today, Krankster. Hope your "today" is better now than it otherwise would have been.

Thanks....

^_^ everyone has a time where they feel like that boya, it's the friends that give you a good smack in the back of the head and hold out a paw to you, they show you how you mean to them, iv'e always had a smile on my face, regardless, at one point i thought to myself that, if i could just smile at everything, no one would see the hurt, and it wouldn't exit any more, so i swallowed my pain and torment until one day i felt like exploding, except by this time i had kept everything inside for so long that i didn't know how to reach out to those that could have helped me, i

turned my back on everything that meant anything to me, i fell deeper and deeper into a depression that at several times in my life, i tried to end my own life, every day just got worse and worse for me, until i found someone who would be like family to me, the first thing she did was smack me for the things i had said, and then hug me, for the first time i had somone to care about me,

i hope you have someone like that, someone you can spill all your secrets out to, someone that will always make you feel good about being who you are, if not, always look to your friends, weather you know them personally or not, there will always be someone who understands you, i am even offering my past experiences to relate to anything you could be going through as a beacon to guide you back to happiness, all you have to do is ask, and i will listen ^_^

sorry ^_^;; i tend to talk way too much

It is ok.

I am just in a stormy time in my life.
Am overly sensitive when I get depressed like this...

well, i have an idea, send me an e-mail about everything ^_^ make sure it's long, typing it out wil let you vent all your frustration and depression =D

Do you want me to send it to your hotmail email?

i think it's the only one i have listed here on FA, so sure >^_^<

Ok...

And sorry I had taken so long to reply.
I was thinking if I wanted to spill the beans or not.

^_^ hehe, no worries, i won't tell anyone anything, unless you want me too, hehe, but as i find, the best way to make yourself feel better, is to find someone you can trust.

I sent the email.

Gonna go to bed.
And cry myself to sleep....

aww, you shouldn't cry yourself to sleep, unless you ate bad sushi or something >_> then that could be something to cry about, especially when you have to throw up all that tasty chinese food =p

anyways, i hope my e-mail helps you out at all, even though i rambled on and off topics like i have A.D.H.D. i hope that you read it and at least are able to smile and feel just a little bit better about being you.




It's okay to cry, if you don't allow yourself to cry, then you'll never be able to smile. ~Manji_fox

Ok sent another Fur-Mail to ya.

i wrote a lot, i didn't notice how much i wrote till i was done, i hope you like to read, lol

Sure I don't mind.

HUGS HIM
I am always here for you.. Whenever you need me

This is really cool. You basically explained my life in your poem there.

Oh my that is scary in a way. o.O

Yes that really is... Oh well.

I always wanted to write a poem like this but i never knew how. Instead i wrote other crap.

Well, this was long ago right? Because you have me!!!!! lol
Is ok buddy!

Yep it was a couple of months ago.
I miss hanging out now that your out at your job. xD

Awww. Me too! But i'll be there soon