A love story that came to an end.
Because of a selfish person who couldn't see what she had.
The end of 5 years, i never saw coming...
I lost my love, my life, my happiness...
My best friend...

A hole where my heart use to be. that she didn't care to take care of.
A black mane for the weight of our memories together. you strangle me even though you're not here
This fire i started, is burning me alive.
Who knew a simple hello would hurt me this much.

A story, that was suppose to to be ours, Destroyed by you. Selfish and blind. And yet you blamed me for this, even though you left with no explanation. But i've come to realize that it was because you needed someone to blame. And i was that someone. Heck, i was the only someone you had for a long time.
This is your fault.You did this to me.To us.

Because i did my best for us both, but it would turn out to never be enough for you or your family.
Your family... That you could never please enough...
Who have done nothing but bring you down and feel broken. And even make me feel like i was the problem. I never said i could be perfect. I could never be your God, and take all your problems away, like they wanted.
Your family, that is the reason you have the problems you do. Yet me, the person who believed in you, got the short end of the stick.

Because i never gave up on you.
I pushed and encouraged you, i told you that you could do anything you set your heart to.
Yet you believe those who say you'll not be anything unless you do as they say.

And that's sad.
But you have became just as other people who have hurt me, you're another who have broke their promises to me.
Another added to the pile.
But you know what? I promised i'd never be someone who left your life. And the i'd never give up on you.
And i'm able to say that i never became that person.
I kept my promise to you.
I was there when you'd wake up from bad dreams, or you would worry about little things, or even when you would cry and needed someone to comfort you.
I was the one who was there for you when you needed someone.
Then you throw me out like trash.
I don't even know why you left.
You just out of nowhere said "i'm done" and you were gone...
But i don't think i ever will know why you did this to us.

And that's alright.
Because its your loss, and a huge one at that.
Your trash will be someone else treasure.
You called my efforts worthless and my lack of way an excuse.
But you'll be the one to live in this torment for the rest of your life.
And one thing i know for a fact, without a doubt.

No one will ever love you like i did.
Because you might run now from the truth.
And you might push those feelings aside.
But the truth always comes into the light.
Everything around you will remind you of me.
Everything.
Because i was there for you 110% and was always by your side.
I remember when i was down there for a visit, and it was time for us to part ways. The sun was almost fully set.
And i got up from the ground, and picked you up. I put a headphone in your ear and one in mine, and we danced to our song. and that's not even to mention the other things we had together those days.
You didn't ask me to... I did it because.

I loved you
You'll never get that, or any of the things i did for you, from anyone else. Man or Woman.
And it's gonna suck, because when you have sweet things happen to you. Guess who you'll think of?
Because i gave you my whole heart, i wasn't scared to love you.
But i see now i should have been.

I gave you the power to destroy me, believing you wouldn't...Yet you did
So now i catch myself thinking about what could have been. And remember, that i can still have those things.
You just wont be part of them.
While you sleep just fine at night. Thinking things will be alright with you.

How sad.
Let me ask.
How could you end 5 years together with two words?
I never cheated, or abused your trust like you did mine.
All i herd from anyone you knew was that i was abusive and manipulative, and that i was no good.
Yet they didn't know me, or us. No one liked me on your end.
Yet my family and friends would talk to you. Pray for you. And never hated you, because they knew you had things hard.


So how does that work?
I'm not those things, because i tried my best to work on our problems.

when you would always give up. And give excuses.
You see, i didn't run. Because i wanted us to have a long, and very happy relationship.

I'm sorry i wasn't perfect like you wanted.Like everyone wanted.
But you'll rue the day when you understand, i did my best to be an honest man.
You had a faithful, honest, thoughtful, caring, loving, passionate, romantic, motivated, man.
And after all we have been through together. i didn't deserve an end like this.

We didn't deserve an end like this...
And it's stupid because i still care about you.
After all you've put me though i still freaking care about you.
And that says a lot.
When you can't give me the time of day.
I'm still going to have my kids we planed to have, because those names i came up with had meaning.
If you want no part of it then don't.

I'm free from the abuse, the lies, the hurt... yet my heart hurts the the most.While you don't even care.
I'm not even sure you'll see this, but i feel better getting it out.
So until next time
Amanda Faith Jones
Dani Blu
Your life is what you've made it.
This is your fault, and your loss.
Not mine.

P.S. Our potato kids are wondering where their mama's at. I'm glad this happened to them and not our actual kids.

Aaron & Amanda. 5/5/2012 - 5/24/2017