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Life's A Chibi: Depressed Diagnosis
There are times when you feel like utter crap - your mood drops for a long period of time, it's hard for you to smile or think of reasons to be happy, you can't really feel any other emotions besides depression and loneliness. You try to figure out why you feel depressed, searching deep inside yourself to try to find the answers. There are so many possible things that you feel might be responsible for your depressed mood. It might be the change of weather, something that triggered you that you saw online/offline or someone told you, it could be an event that you witnessed or been through, or maybe it's just bodily hormones. Not agreeing to those reasons, you keep digging deeper until you can't find anything but darkness. Not knowing what is causing you misery, you keep your mouth shut and your spirits down until you find the answer. This may take hours, to days, to weeks.
When you are depressed and feel empty, it is hard to self diagnose yourself and try to figure out the reason why you are upset. When a friend or love one asks you why you are so down, you struggle to find why you are, but all that could come out of your mouth is "I don't know" or no answer at all. You want to know that answer because if you knew why you are depressed, you know how to fix it or have your friends and love ones help fix it with you. Even if you know the answer but too embarrassed to say it, you still need to speak it and get it out. You need to speak what ails you in order to find ways to get rid of it or fix it. Do fun activities as well. It help makes you forget your depression and replaces it with something that makes you happy and that you enjoy doing.
If you still can't find the right words to describe how you feel, be creative and create vent art: draw it, write it, sing it, craft it, etc. Any way to get it out in physical form to help you or others understand why you are depressed. Its self-therapeutic and it does help.
artwork © 2017 Alex Cockburn
When you are depressed and feel empty, it is hard to self diagnose yourself and try to figure out the reason why you are upset. When a friend or love one asks you why you are so down, you struggle to find why you are, but all that could come out of your mouth is "I don't know" or no answer at all. You want to know that answer because if you knew why you are depressed, you know how to fix it or have your friends and love ones help fix it with you. Even if you know the answer but too embarrassed to say it, you still need to speak it and get it out. You need to speak what ails you in order to find ways to get rid of it or fix it. Do fun activities as well. It help makes you forget your depression and replaces it with something that makes you happy and that you enjoy doing.
If you still can't find the right words to describe how you feel, be creative and create vent art: draw it, write it, sing it, craft it, etc. Any way to get it out in physical form to help you or others understand why you are depressed. Its self-therapeutic and it does help.
artwork © 2017 Alex Cockburn
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When i lost my mom to cancer, I literally lost the ability to feel sad or cry. Ever since then, no matter how down or sad I feel... I don't *really* feel it; even at her funeral, I looked at her, and didn't feel anything but an absence of emotion that was so deep even other people were worried about it.
I don't know if I'll ever get that feeling back again. It's been over a decade and nothing that used to make me feel that way really affects me anymore. Only time will tell, I suppose.
I don't know if I'll ever get that feeling back again. It's been over a decade and nothing that used to make me feel that way really affects me anymore. Only time will tell, I suppose.
First of all, thank you for the kind words...and secondly yeah, hits the nail right on the head for me X3. There are those days where I really don't know what the heck's wrong with me so I can fix it. On those days, it doesn't help that I live alone but thankfully, family is just one call away. And other times, I just can't feel anything either...
~Cain
~Cain
I have been feeling broken hearted lately... So much going on, being harassed by an ex, troubles at work, just... So much. I am overwhelmed. But I know tomorrow is a new day... It may take days of tomorrow's to feel better... But I'm feeling better... It feels like it will never end, but that's a lie... Just hang on... It always gets better.
I think that on some level when you seem unable to feel anything, it's actually your body and mind taking it easy on itself. Sometimes when I get angry, I feel dizzy from the rush of hormones and other chemicals that surge into my bloodstream, and then I feel like I'm honestly on fire for some time afterwards. Emotions, especially the intense ones, are seriously draining on your body, and for those of us who feel them very strongly, I believe your body literally needs a rest from them from time to time, and creates moments of emotional calmness so you don't end up having too much of a negative effect on yourself.
all emotions are chemical reactions and are therefor irrational. Being without emotions isn't necessarily a bad thing. What are you missing besides misery? I think one can feel joy without actually "feeling" anything. Even the word "E-Motion" is suspect.
When I feel rotten, I remind myself it's because humans have abused me for 38 years without showing any signs of stopping or learning their behavior is wrong. It strengthens my resolve to remember that.
When I feel rotten, I remind myself it's because humans have abused me for 38 years without showing any signs of stopping or learning their behavior is wrong. It strengthens my resolve to remember that.
I lost feeling of my joy for the longest time, it was gradual, but losing everything in middle school broke what little grip of social ettiqut and the 'real world' I became numb to anyone trying to help, and sunk deeper as I overheard everyone else's issues. For the longest time, there was just THAT feeling. That there was something that was once there, gone now. It left that hole in my soul. It also seems to have the first development of my depression.
But you know, on a much more important note. This picture is very well illustrated to show that issue that hits so many eventually. This stuff right here and you lovely veiws are the reason I just love watching you.
But you know, on a much more important note. This picture is very well illustrated to show that issue that hits so many eventually. This stuff right here and you lovely veiws are the reason I just love watching you.
I get this way every now and then from remembering two separate times when I was told the last things I ever expected to hear from my father. "No one thought you were going to graduate (high school) and that you would end up just another drug dealer" and "we didn't plan on having a second kid, I just didn't pull out in time."
Now whenever my mom says "I wanted two kids and that was it" I wonder if she's lying to me. Often times when I feel down I retreat inwardly and avoid everyone else, getting lost in cyberspace or video games. Occasionally, the really bad thoughts come, you know the ones. And I think part of my mask to hide how F'ed I am is that I make a lot of jokes, some bad like dad jokes, some adult humor.
I like it when these "O-kemotivationals", as I have taken to calling them, come out. Feels like there is someone out there who gets it, and as seen here it brings out the others who are stuck in the same ship.
Now whenever my mom says "I wanted two kids and that was it" I wonder if she's lying to me. Often times when I feel down I retreat inwardly and avoid everyone else, getting lost in cyberspace or video games. Occasionally, the really bad thoughts come, you know the ones. And I think part of my mask to hide how F'ed I am is that I make a lot of jokes, some bad like dad jokes, some adult humor.
I like it when these "O-kemotivationals", as I have taken to calling them, come out. Feels like there is someone out there who gets it, and as seen here it brings out the others who are stuck in the same ship.
I've had this a lot recently... I've always tried to keep myself busy so my mind doesn't think about it, to the extent of doing more with my Youtube account to be less anti-social... but sometimes I can't even muster the energy to record, let alone get out of bed >___<
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This says so much. I used to be such a cheerful person. I used to give out hugs and joke around with people and have a really fun time, but for the longest time it's just been an act. A ruse. Deception.
The thing is that I know the exact reason for my depression.
But my rational side knows that I will get hurt if the information gets out.
And even though I have people that can protect me, I will get them hurt too.
My entire life is in shambles. I just wish that I could go to being my cheery self again.
But the price I would have to pay would probably make me kill myself.
Ehh. Guess that's about it. Thanks for listening to me yap.
This says so much. I used to be such a cheerful person. I used to give out hugs and joke around with people and have a really fun time, but for the longest time it's just been an act. A ruse. Deception.
The thing is that I know the exact reason for my depression.
But my rational side knows that I will get hurt if the information gets out.
And even though I have people that can protect me, I will get them hurt too.
My entire life is in shambles. I just wish that I could go to being my cheery self again.
But the price I would have to pay would probably make me kill myself.
Ehh. Guess that's about it. Thanks for listening to me yap.
I feel the exact same way. Sometimes, I just hits me as I think deeply about something. I can't explain the feeling, just that....I don't know why I feel like this. At first I thought it had to do with humanity, but it's numb to me now. Then I thought it was because I missed my childhood that much, yet when thinking about it...it wouldn't make that much sense. Then, I came across the thought of the fact I had bad trust issues. It seemed to fit why I felt empty, yet couldn't tell hardly anyone. Especially with my feelings on certain stuff most people would find really strange, and judge me for that. I feel like that would happen, so I don't bother at all. I sometimes talk to some people about it when I feel like I can trust them enough to not be so harsh. I...still have problems with this today. It still haunts me, and I just want to move on from that. It's hard...
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