This picture is one part an answer to my previous piece and a statement of my current emotional well-being. I'm doing okay now.

My birthday was yesterday. It was bad. I am just about to head out to the pub with friends and we'll mull it over there over a few drinks. That's what we set these bar days for after all!

I was extremely upset and defeated yesterday evening and I only truly broke out of it completely about an hour ago. Now that I'm out of that funk I know what made me so upset and I know to avoid it like the plague. It's been building y'know. Just throw in an excessively abusive day after a string of hard work days and mix in some past traumas and you have yourself the recipe for a powerfully toxic emotional state. That's all!

I'm not better, I'm just feeling alright now. I'm not fine yet, but I feel well enough to continue being me. I can draw and manifest nice things again. Like a certain dragon who's been so helpful these past few weeks. This guy has been really useful. Drawing him reminds me of all the hope I have for him and his series. That hope was what kept me sane enough to not have a huge breakdown. At the same time, I guess my expectations for my birthday were enough to knock me for a loop when they didn't come true.

Drawing this picture was enough to finally make me smile again! I feel like myself now! It's magical! I haven't felt like this in at least a week and some.

I have a few other stray ideas that didn't totally do it but helped reassure me that things were going to be alright.

I'm sorry I worried you guys. I get so flustered by life sometimes that I lose what little good sense I have. I know it's not a matter of trying harder and that I ought to give myself a break every so often. Thank you all for bearing with me. You guys are the best!