Trying to come to terms with my 'furriness' was rather difficult for me. It was significantly much more than simply liking animal characters, and I always felt that there was some part of me deep inside that was unaddressed, an important part of my soul that was trying to tell me something or perhaps simply trying to 'be'. I didn't know it back then, but there were many others who also felt 'out of place', as if they belonged somewhere else, somewhere outside of what we know as reality.

The Dreamwall is about the division between this "furry" existence and the physical reality we call "real life." We long to exist purely as furries -- not just to look like them physically, but to exist in a place where we can truly be ourselves, somewhere that might be freer from certain constricting human social structures. Even though having a furry community allows us come together and try to create a more 'furry' environment, there will always be that gap, that separation of the 'human' and the 'furry' part of existence.

The kangaroo on the other side of the Dreamwall is 'Melody', a figure that haunted my psyche during the years I was discovering the furry side of myself. I view her as a metaphysical force, a spirit guide, and my muse -- the soul trying to connect with mine from beyond the Dreamwall. Over the years, I've continually tried to re-evaluate the nature of her relationship with me, and in doing so have learned a lot about my own identity and what it is that makes me who I am.