I think and I look and I try and I fail. I keep finding myself missing her. I keep looking in the dark, I keep trying to find a way through to get to her, I just can't find her. It's been hard without her. I feel like any chance I get if getting close she moves to the side and I fall. I'm a heart broken mess. I miss her like a child misses a blanket. I can't deal with with it.