I have no idea how long it's been since I had anything artful come to mind.. leave it to sewing up hole's in my boyfriend's torn up jeans to make me start thinking artfully again..

I've been in a real deep funk ever since I got out of that crap in LA/AZ, the depression I'm just lifting started when I was there.. all the heart I had for everything.. drawing, writing, games.. just life in general.. just kinda faded away..

Nothing worked at all, I'd draw a circle and then have no more will to draw.. type a sentence and there would be nothing inside to continue it, log into a game and then feel tired and worn and log off.
I sleep hours on end in this black dreamless void.. missing calls from my best friend who I STILL haven't gotten in touch with which pisses me off at myself to no end, the few hours I'm awake I'm usually with Robert or wandering back and fourth in my home.
Finally i started to get something when i was sitting on my bed trying to think of how to cut a patch for Robert's jeans. It felt boring just doing a simple square.. so my mind went to hearts.. then smears of overlapping hearts, then simplified puppies and kitties, birds and flowers and clouds.. then to the tablet...
God this thing had so much dust on it... but it felt good trying to draw again. Slowly line by line I started to get something. It's some kind of elf, obviously.. I think it's a re-vamped Luath. Just like everything else I haven't done anything with her since a month after they came out on Mabinogi..
It's taking forever.. but I've got most of it done line wise.. now I'm just redoing the face for the billionth time.. I think a blindfold would look really cool, so I'mma try and do it once I remember how to draw fuckin fabric...
DAMMIT I SUCK AT THIS NOW!