[Second part of the new essays "It took the night to believe".

Style: Surrealism

"Come in here, Dear boy, have a cigar.
You're gonna go far,
You're gonna fly high,
You're never gonna die,
You're gonna make it, if you try;
They're gonna love you.
Well I've always had a deep respect,
And I mean that most sincere.
The band is just fantastic,
that is really what I think."

Be polite, don't ask about the thumbnail IN THE SUB. COMMENTS for the love of your mother...or father...or dog...ouch poor dog...

July 2009]
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...so sehr...!...von ganzem Herzen! Gib nicht auf! Bitte, hilf mich! Hilf mich!

"Goodbye
My friend
It's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky;
Now that the spring is in the air"

"Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold"

Have I learned something? There hasn't been a day that my faith's been put to the limit of an unknown range...sweet...so sweet. Ligero, demasiado ligero para volar, sin embargo camino sobre dichos, las palabras no hacen más que engañar. But I keep falling, I keep believing, that someday I'll learn.

Veo tu mano tratando de tomarme, tu rostro en lagrimas pidiendo que me levante y que tome tu mano. Pero mi fuerza es opuesta, como el giro del viento, es fuerte, ha crecído conmigo, pero lucha en otro sentido. ¿Qué es lo que perdí? ¿Qué fue lo que no viví? Detrás de tí veo aquellos rostros, muchos riendo, otros indiferentes...

I should take your hand...I should've taken you hand...but I keep drowning in my guilt, my tears, my rotting pride...I rest on the sand waiting for your call, for your help, but when you come to me, I die, I lay down waiting to be carried away. Who am I? Who am I to ask and never give? Why can't I learn?

"That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight, I'm
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try"

Quisiera ahogarme en la pena, quedar encerrado en mi culpa para no tener que volver a levantarme, apra no depender de otros sentimientos, no volver a lastimar a nadie, ni a manipular, ni a condenar...Aprender a compartir lo bueno, no mi nube tóxica, nunca más. I want my face all over the street, my blood food for the needed, all those I hated, all those I wanted to kill. Don't I deserve a lonesome end?

I stood again, walked to the other side, and I didn't want to look back to you, because I knew I've done bad, I've asked too much, and I'm not what you need. I try to change but its not my nature. Still, pride is stronger than love, never trusted words more than feelings...But what if words are charged with real love? My blind heart can't feel them. Help me, please, who will take the covers and let me feel the meaning of your lips? La coraza de mi naturaleza bloquea la verdad, es como si quisiera no sentir nunca más. Oigo tus palabras pero no creo en ellas. No puedo...no puedo...

"All our times have come
Here, but now there, gone
Seasons don't fear the reaper,
Nor do the wind, the sun or the rain
We can be like they are"

"Day after day, love turns gray
Like the skin of a dying man.
Night after night, we pretend its all right

And I can feel one of my turns coming on.
I feel cold as a razor blade,
Tight as a tourniquet,
Dry as a funeral drum."

Caer...caer es perder, es rendirse, es entregarlo todo por un futuro vacio, pregonar por un fin indefinido. Qué es un fin vacio si tus propósitos no son claros, es justo pedir paz sin importar el costo. ¿Por qué lamento lo que aun no sucede? ¿Por qué me levanto cada mañana para atormentarme con memorias, esas dulces corrientes eléctricas que rodean mi cabeza y reprimen todos los placeres, alimentan la culpa y dejan caer la nube sobre mí? The rain, oh the rain is so beautiful, so sweet...

"SHINE ON YOU CRAZY DIAMOND!"

"Would you like to learn to fly?
Would'ya?
Would you like to see me try?

WHY ARE YOU RUNNING AWAY!?"

Leave me but don't leave me.Leave me but don't leave me.Leave me but don't leave me.Leave me but don't leave me.Leave me but don't leave me.Leave me but don't leave me.Leave me but don't leave me.Leave me but don't leave me...

You...who are you?

Have I been left to rot? Is this what I wanted? Did I even fight for this? I haven't moved, no blink, no breath, no nothing...I hear the machines, where have I been? Have I been guilty all this time? HAVE I? Who is to fear now? What should I do?
I can't find strength, can't build no faith, there's nothing around me to wake up, to fight, what's going to happen with me? Where should I stay?

Ese bosque me llama. Busco palabras pero su silencio me acobija, me acaricia. No need to waste the words.

"Ya no hay sangre por mis venas
una historia he de contar
Espero así, contra el olvido
saldar mi deuda eterna al fin

Mato por buscar justicia
Mato por sobrevivir
Muero por amarte en día
Vivo por volverte a ver"

Is there some hope for me?