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/music/ Renegade Five - When We Say Goodbye
I hate writing such personal posts, because I consider them as a whisper in an empty room, but this is strongly related to drawing and my old artwork.
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So, I decided to stop to work on my setting "Mrakville" and put it in the back box. This is the setting in which live Gordon-John, Valera, Suzz, Mazord and Shtaub. The characters remain on the OC list (!!!) and they can certainly be drawn by you, but I personally stop working on their stories, and I also will not do art with them for N-th time. This summerI burned with a crazy desire to develop Mrakvill, for me it became a motivator and the main goal in drawing, but ... Not now.
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The characters from Mrakville are a huge bunch of things connected with the past and with people who turned into ashes, with the most painful experiences and teen years, which was sad and boring.
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It happens when the Person lives with memories and past connections for years, and without end runs them through own heart and thoughts. The past hangs on a thread that manipulates the mind, and suddenly one day, on a clear morning at the end of summer, just opening their's eyes, the Person realizes that this thread was cut off, and the past, like a heavy load, fell into the abyss. Only emptiness remains, but when we lose everything, we gain freedom, right?
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Through my still favorite Five from Mrakvill I always splashed out my emotions, experiences. In their stories i brought in bits of my life, albeit with a share of fantasy and exaggeration, and in the characteristics they invested something from me.
But now there is nothing more to splash and there is nothing to put in my characters. Along with the past, the connection with my guys and girl was also disappeared. They have become for me not just characters, they becamea real companions in life. The companions that accompanied me for many years, but now it's time for everyone to disperse around, at least for a while. Something was changed in my soul, and I need to get used to it.
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In the end, I do not want to forcibly drive myself into making up my mind to catch the inspiration for drawing someone from Mrakville, it's extremely boring and painful for me. I want to go forward, for myself at first.
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But even in the void a new life will born again. Next come i'll make new worlds and characters who will already share my grayness and choice: to live only in the present, not become attached to things and people, to be cool-headed and judicious.
I repeat: Five of these characters will not go anywhere. They are still my characters.
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PS: I beg to accept that I draw mostly people and anthro than ferals now. Especially my soul and hand prefer to draw humans mostly. But I try to draw a little bit of everything.
I forgot to mention: I stopped draw Kung Fu Panda fan-art. Previously I had a KFP setting with Chi Su, but the years was passed, I have other interests and more interesting fandom on the horizon.
I'm so sorry for my bad English
I hate writing such personal posts, because I consider them as a whisper in an empty room, but this is strongly related to drawing and my old artwork.
-
So, I decided to stop to work on my setting "Mrakville" and put it in the back box. This is the setting in which live Gordon-John, Valera, Suzz, Mazord and Shtaub. The characters remain on the OC list (!!!) and they can certainly be drawn by you, but I personally stop working on their stories, and I also will not do art with them for N-th time. This summerI burned with a crazy desire to develop Mrakvill, for me it became a motivator and the main goal in drawing, but ... Not now.
-
The characters from Mrakville are a huge bunch of things connected with the past and with people who turned into ashes, with the most painful experiences and teen years, which was sad and boring.
-
It happens when the Person lives with memories and past connections for years, and without end runs them through own heart and thoughts. The past hangs on a thread that manipulates the mind, and suddenly one day, on a clear morning at the end of summer, just opening their's eyes, the Person realizes that this thread was cut off, and the past, like a heavy load, fell into the abyss. Only emptiness remains, but when we lose everything, we gain freedom, right?
-
Through my still favorite Five from Mrakvill I always splashed out my emotions, experiences. In their stories i brought in bits of my life, albeit with a share of fantasy and exaggeration, and in the characteristics they invested something from me.
But now there is nothing more to splash and there is nothing to put in my characters. Along with the past, the connection with my guys and girl was also disappeared. They have become for me not just characters, they becamea real companions in life. The companions that accompanied me for many years, but now it's time for everyone to disperse around, at least for a while. Something was changed in my soul, and I need to get used to it.
-
In the end, I do not want to forcibly drive myself into making up my mind to catch the inspiration for drawing someone from Mrakville, it's extremely boring and painful for me. I want to go forward, for myself at first.
-
But even in the void a new life will born again. Next come i'll make new worlds and characters who will already share my grayness and choice: to live only in the present, not become attached to things and people, to be cool-headed and judicious.
I repeat: Five of these characters will not go anywhere. They are still my characters.
_
PS: I beg to accept that I draw mostly people and anthro than ferals now. Especially my soul and hand prefer to draw humans mostly. But I try to draw a little bit of everything.
I forgot to mention: I stopped draw Kung Fu Panda fan-art. Previously I had a KFP setting with Chi Su, but the years was passed, I have other interests and more interesting fandom on the horizon.
I'm so sorry for my bad English
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No, I didn't sleep that long. I had some personal stuff to deal with, got home late and fell asleep again -_-'
Anyways, I've said I wanted to comment something, so here we go.
I don't think that expressing feelings and thoughts are a "whisper in an empty room", we are humans behind these screens, afterall. There are many things that if we keep to ourselves will end up eating us from inside, lefting nothing else but sadness and sorrow. I'm not saying that this is your case, but hard situations like these might not end well...being a great fan of yours and your work, I'm glad to hear you expressing such feelings. And...since I'm here I guess your words didn't go to an empty room, did they? hehe ^^
As for what you were saying, it is really sad that you came to this point with Mrakville's characters. I had a feeling that there was a big plot behind them and was particularly curious to find out more about it. But I know the feeling when you just don't feel like writing/drawing something that isn't making you happy. At first, I'd only draw and write the story of my sona, Snake, and when I joined DeviantArt I started drawing and writing a KFP fanfic about a black panther girl named Liu Zhang.
I've been writing Snake's story for over 11 years now, it has gone through Many changes and improvements, and Liu's story came 4 years ago. I'd only draw in KFP style and stuff related to Liu, and same goes for Snake. These two kinda became my friends and not just characters to me, and sometimes I feel that I'll never foget the things "we have been trough together" xD
It's as if before doing anything I wonder "What would Snake do?" - "How would Liu feel about this?" .It feels weird but nice at the same time. The thing is that...one day my best friend told me that both my art and stories sucked! I got mad at him at first, but ended up taking the critic nicely because he was right. And in the end of this...I stopped writing for a while and drawing KFP stuff. I feel like I can use my skills for better reasons, like earning money and getting better at both my favorite hobbies.
In the end, Snake's story got so complex and long that it is very hard to tell people how it is, and the 'perfect hero' which I always dreamed to become and which Snake was meant to be keeps getting farther and farther away each day...thanks to the darker side of his history that comes from my past and dark thoughts. As for Liu...I suffered bullying in the past because of KFP, since it was my introduction to the furry fandom, people still think bullshit about me and mock me saying how childish I am for liking these stuff...and now Liu and her fanfics bring me back this feeling
It is just like you've said: I don't want to force myself into working on something which I no longer enjoy that much. I'll never let go of both Snake and Liu, but...I gotta keep them in the box for a while
Oh, and last but not least: you've said that you're changing. Keeping such beloved characters in a box may feel bad, but don't forget that there are evils that come for good, and that might be the 'devil' which will lead you to good things: new universes, characters, stories and memories. This only makes me more excited to keep watching your work
Keep being great, Suzamuri! You rock
#YourEnglishISGood
Anyways, I've said I wanted to comment something, so here we go.
I don't think that expressing feelings and thoughts are a "whisper in an empty room", we are humans behind these screens, afterall. There are many things that if we keep to ourselves will end up eating us from inside, lefting nothing else but sadness and sorrow. I'm not saying that this is your case, but hard situations like these might not end well...being a great fan of yours and your work, I'm glad to hear you expressing such feelings. And...since I'm here I guess your words didn't go to an empty room, did they? hehe ^^
As for what you were saying, it is really sad that you came to this point with Mrakville's characters. I had a feeling that there was a big plot behind them and was particularly curious to find out more about it. But I know the feeling when you just don't feel like writing/drawing something that isn't making you happy. At first, I'd only draw and write the story of my sona, Snake, and when I joined DeviantArt I started drawing and writing a KFP fanfic about a black panther girl named Liu Zhang.
I've been writing Snake's story for over 11 years now, it has gone through Many changes and improvements, and Liu's story came 4 years ago. I'd only draw in KFP style and stuff related to Liu, and same goes for Snake. These two kinda became my friends and not just characters to me, and sometimes I feel that I'll never foget the things "we have been trough together" xD
It's as if before doing anything I wonder "What would Snake do?" - "How would Liu feel about this?" .It feels weird but nice at the same time. The thing is that...one day my best friend told me that both my art and stories sucked! I got mad at him at first, but ended up taking the critic nicely because he was right. And in the end of this...I stopped writing for a while and drawing KFP stuff. I feel like I can use my skills for better reasons, like earning money and getting better at both my favorite hobbies.
In the end, Snake's story got so complex and long that it is very hard to tell people how it is, and the 'perfect hero' which I always dreamed to become and which Snake was meant to be keeps getting farther and farther away each day...thanks to the darker side of his history that comes from my past and dark thoughts. As for Liu...I suffered bullying in the past because of KFP, since it was my introduction to the furry fandom, people still think bullshit about me and mock me saying how childish I am for liking these stuff...and now Liu and her fanfics bring me back this feeling
It is just like you've said: I don't want to force myself into working on something which I no longer enjoy that much. I'll never let go of both Snake and Liu, but...I gotta keep them in the box for a while
Oh, and last but not least: you've said that you're changing. Keeping such beloved characters in a box may feel bad, but don't forget that there are evils that come for good, and that might be the 'devil' which will lead you to good things: new universes, characters, stories and memories. This only makes me more excited to keep watching your work
Keep being great, Suzamuri! You rock
#YourEnglishISGood
I'm really speechless and very thankful to you for this comment.
It really means a lot for me and my soul.
Your words are really importrant and i'm glad to see it under this art.
Another thank to you for your small story about your OCs Snake and Liu. I hope you feel better now.
Thank you <3
It really means a lot for me and my soul.
Your words are really importrant and i'm glad to see it under this art.
Another thank to you for your small story about your OCs Snake and Liu. I hope you feel better now.
Thank you <3
You are more than welcome, Suz
I'm really glad that my words made you feel good ^^
Seeing you well makes me feel well, hehe. Oh, and yes, I do feel better about the 2 of them. They are still in the box, other artists are drawing Snake more than I am hahaha xD
Everything has it's right time, I'm just waiting to find mine
I'm really glad that my words made you feel good ^^
Seeing you well makes me feel well, hehe. Oh, and yes, I do feel better about the 2 of them. They are still in the box, other artists are drawing Snake more than I am hahaha xD
Everything has it's right time, I'm just waiting to find mine
Wwwwwwwow. You must know that other feeling, when reading other person's journal and think "heey! That's exacly like... " ..yeah.
I wish i could give you more detailed expression, but due to my latter lack of creativity, let's just say it warms my heart, knowing that i'm not the only one, who whispers into walls.
Thanks for that share
I wish i could give you more detailed expression, but due to my latter lack of creativity, let's just say it warms my heart, knowing that i'm not the only one, who whispers into walls.
Thanks for that share
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