So, I broke up with my boyfriend of two years the other day. From the moment it started, we had promised to be totally okay if either of us had found someone else much closer to home because we know a long distance relationship is usually too hard to keep for a long time, and there was no foreseeable way for us to get in physical contact for another few years.

Still, when the time came, I found myself completely unprepared. I never really thought it would happen, or maybe I was more emotionally invested than I thought. Whatever the reason, I've been crying every night for the last three days.

This is unlike any heartbreak I've had before because it's not my fault.. it's nobody's fault, so I can't be angry at myself and claim that self harm is the right solution this time, even though it never is.. So, all I can do is just.. cry and cry and cry..

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t47fADGOaxc

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The image title is in reference to a role play I had a long time ago where I explained that night furies have never been heard howling. If they do, it's so rare, that maybe they aren't even capable of it.
But they can. And it's a very ominous, sad sound.. deep in pitch and richly soulful.. the kind of noise that makes any animal for miles stop and listen as the sound echoes off of canyon walls and streams through even the densest of forest canopies..