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Hello everyone,
It took my a long time before catching the strenght to answer to your question "why selling Ariah".
First, I'd like to say : relax. I finally cancelled the auction because I only got offers from people who had sexual attentions with Ariah's fursuit. It's out of question that she'd be used for that stuff.
First reason, she's however a part of myself. And myself isn't this kind of person. And second reason, Ariah was registred in my swiss furry association so she was seen with children and old people in aged home. Plus, the association was/is sponsored by one of the biggest commercial center of the country. I'm not sure they'd like to see their center being associate to sexual furry stuff ! That's why I want her 100% clean.
It was just an explaination about that. Now, I'll explain you why I suddently took this decision.
I created Ariah in 2nd. My first fursona was/is Mydeggi. I wanted another fursona to represent my childish side. Mydeggi is like a mom. A serious and strong woman. Her face and personnality wasn't working with my other projects, especially that my first Mydeggi's fursuit version was enough realistic.
Ariah is the pure side. Childish and innocent. Just a little bunny who just likes having fun with her friends and play video games or other social games with her friend. Just a cute bunny who could be easily scared so that's why 
is protecting her.
But ... Well ... Sometimes I feel myself lost about who I really am. I mean, about my personnality. There were so much things in the past that made me change that I finally lost my own nature. Before knowing and joining the fandom (thanx to him for bringing me here ^^) I was starting to evolve in hate. Cause of people, a lot of people with who I went in serious troubles ... Bad people ... So, with Ayce I learned how to be more kind/nice. To relax a bit and let people approach me.
You know, when you were hurted too many times, there's a time when you don't really want someone else in your life. Being alone is sometimes the best solution. That's what I meant. But Ayce brought me in the fandom and helped me to relax and try to feel the trust in people again. So, sometimes it's not easy for me to react at some messages/words/sentences. I'm afraid to hurt and I'm afraid to be hurted again. I just don't want to become the person I was any years ago, cause yes, I was scary. People were scared to sit next to me. I think you know what I mean if I tell you "people feel the bad energy" inside someone and don't let approach.
As I said many times ... I really had a lot of problems with my suit head.... The first one ... I really couldn't see with it. I always needed someone to take my hand and be my guide telling me where to put my paws or not. It was starting to be hard cause I couldn't be independant in my suit. I always needed someone with me ... Impossible to suit alone. Even 2 meters. Plus, a very bad breating in it as the mouth comes under my own chin.
I sent it back he puted a fan and sent it again to me. So, I was happy thinking that it would help but .... The fan was puted in front of my forehead .... I just got my hair catched in and got headach .... Nothing else ...
1 one year I only could my fursuit 3x (I mean outside not for photos or videos at home).
As he promised to remake a new head, completely, I waited for it. It was just before EF. When the package arrived I was so excited !! I got it just on time, 3 days before I left for EF !! But ... What did I see ?? I opened the package and ... And eye wasn't good done .... Hair .... no good fixed (wig) .... under the ear .... not sewed .... and the mouth ... was pushed inside ... and he forgot to put the tongue again .... It was worst than the 2 first ones. The only positive thing was just the space between both eyes. It was smaller than before. I could see a bit better but ... yeah .... and the head too big again .... cause he told me that he doesn't make head suits with mesurments .... I was disappointed and sad ... So .... I didn't wear Ariah at EF this year ....
I was too much disappointed and angry at him. But this EF we talked and I forgive him. I was looking for another solution to repair myself my head ....
Recently something worst happend that I couldn't forgive and I will never.
The builder was a friend too if I may say. Mostly on Facebook cause IRL we live very far I just met him at EF this year for the first time. But ... he knows my husband Ayce. He encouraged me to forgive him for the mistakes, what I did finally.
But .... it sounds that sometimes hormones are stronger than friendship .... My builder created a secret Telegram chat (I didn't know that it was possible to do that until this evening) and started to act a bit flirty. He always was acting like that and with a lot of girls so I didn't really care. I'm not a fashion pretty sexy girl, I grew up with boys so sometimes I consider myself like their "bro" if you know what I mean. So I didn't care about that. I was preparing myself for a convention, packing my suit, etc.
He asked me if he could be "naugthty" with me. Before letting me answer to this (cause I was busy) I got a dick pic ... Wow ! I was surprised !
I was enough embarassed and concentrated about the convention to not forget to bring something with me. So, I just answered with "it's not good" or "O___O" but he continued to write many messages asking for being naughty with me again and if I want to see another pic but with an erec ....
I answered that my husband wouldn't agree. He only told that never mind. Messages would be destroyed about 1 hour so no proof, nobody would know.
It turned me really angry, disappointed and frustrated that I got such a disgusting message from my builder and friend !
That's why I finally wanted to sell my suit ... To break all the connections between him and myself. when I told it to my friend, she told me that he's flirty with her too and many other girls told me the same. It's disgusting ... Especially from someone considering himself as a professionnal ...
So yeah ... But I took time to reconsider things and talked a lot with my real friends who are supporting me through this. Many knew about his behavior but noone expected that he could send nudes ... Words and acts it's not the same thing.
Now my decision is to modificate my suit. I would change some things and make her reborn again. So, I don't want anyone else to ask me who build my suilt cause I wouldn't give any credits to him.
I want to thank people who were supporting me and say sorry to people I couldn't warn earlier ... I got some messages from girls telling me sadly if they knew that before they wouldn't talked to him about commission.
Here's a message to share my feelings. What I went through. I don't want to see any disrespectful message about that story ! Now I'm going over this ! I'm stronger ! And I'll continue my life and evolving in new projects ! I was just answering to people I worried. For his fangirls/fanboys, go to "spit" your venom somewhere else, you're not welcome here.
Thank you again for reading me and giving me courage
This art was done by my adorable friend 
of 
protecting Ariah. Cause I would never let anyone else hurt my bunbun
Love you guys. Thank you !
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Rabbit / Hare
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