You want to become a chaos magician? Everyone can learn it! First, make sure that your awareness isn't influenced by someone else's conceptions. It has to be completely empty. This means you have to unlearn everything you've learned in your life so far and empty your ego from all conceptions. Then you can use your untouched imagination and focus the creative energy in your awareness to make from chaos in the spiritual realm something new emerge into the world of forms. But it has to feel authentic. If it feels forced, it's not the right path to use your ego. It also doesn't work when you take your ego too seriously because then you will get stuck in its conceptions. Magic is non-serious. Your higher self always exists in chaos and your ego exists in the world of forms and conceptions. You can bring into your awareness whatever you like, for example: Arcane abilities!!! Use them wisely! Magic is real! Don't let your childhood dreams be dreams and create your own damn universe!!!