Here I lie forever
Sorrow still remains
Will the water pull me down and wash it all away
Come and take me over
Welcome to the game
Will the current drag me down and carry me away
Suddenly the light begins to fade

I wont lie, ive felt like crap for several months now since august and its been a steady decline since around a week prior to my birthday, have put a smile on my face the entire time trying to not let anyone see how down i was. Due to events i wont get into i was left feeling alone, tore at myself for having brought it on myself and came the closest i think i have in a long time to just ending it. I dislike the concept of suicide, Ive always rolled my eyes at the thought of someone feeling so down that they had to come to that but with personal experience when you feel youve been sunk so low and the friends you would go to to try and seek support don’t quite seem like friends anymore you honestly feel so alone and isolated that rather than suffer it’s perhaps better to just stop suffering entirely.

So despite it all i have been and will keep putting up a mask as well as try not to seem as down as i may be.

Originally I commissioned two pictures to be drawn by both were supposed to be transformation and this one was originally to be me sharing in transformation with a friend but due to events i was inclined to remove them from the piece that was discussed. The events following the week before my birthday lead to me changing what I commissioned to be this and another image that is a bit more happier and what I intended as a self birthday gift by the same artist here. With this posted and my mind spoken perhaps now i can begin to feel better, even if i feel like how i feel cant quite be put into words.

Zeke belongs to me.
Art by  RileySerenity