It has been a few weeks since I've started feeling that off sensation, like I do not trust my own self anymore. My body is like shell compressed around what I thought was also me, but this shell feels empty, hollow as if what was inside had rotten and went to dust. Only moments I feel truly real is with pain. I wish to know how to make myself come back. I wish I didn't let myself disappear as well as I wish everything had disappeared.

I do not want to worry anyone, I just want to share feelings I've had for too long, I bottle up, I want to scream until I go quiet forever, I want to cry those feelings out but all I get from this is stronger feelings.

I will do my best at finding my own self again, perhaps even breaking this shell into something new ?

But I feel like a ghost that has no purpose



I'm sorry about all of this, sorry about me