I keep getting this idea in my head that I'll start drawing again and it'll be awesome and I'll get back into the fandom and everything will be awesome. And then I get here and finally come back and... nope.

Since I joined the fandom I've had 4 deployments in the last 3.5 years and I've all but stopped drawing. I want so many things but between lack of motivation, creativity, and struggling with my mental health I just can't imagine feeling like I belong anywhere anymore.

I guess this is vent art now? Or just a vent to the internet? Who knows