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2017 for me was the "Year of the Ermine". Darius appears in a disproportionately large part of my uploads. He got more story and I got to learn from the character's experiences, also meanwhile I got a relatively better grip on his face shape.
February/March was "Resistance Month" where I introduced some secondary characters that are on the good side, which was tons of fun regardless of the meh outcome of the pics. The rest of the year again belonged to the villains. I actually dared to upload some harmless smutty stuff, too. Towards the end of the year, I finished few pictures but sketched a lot.
During the year,I took up regular daily sketching again, even though I never showed any of that. As a result, I got faster at drawing digitally, and I made some minimal progress on my chosen problems like faces from different angles.
Well. So far for the positives. Now the negatives.
2017 was also the year where I really embraced the fact that I suck. No, this is not fishing for compliments, it's a coping mechanism. I know that it'll take me hundreds more practice pics to get anywhere resembling satisfying art. If I upload something, it's just 100KB more of bad art on FA, nothing to break a sweat over. And still - whenever I upload, that's the second from which on I can no longer stand to even look at the picture. I'm realistic about where I stand but I feel sooo emotionally vulnerable all the same. Like it's really too early for me to put the stuff out there, and more than once I was shortly before pulling everything from 2016/17 offline or stopping uploading until I reach a better level. The worst thing, I feel so stupid and borderline autistic ranting about my OCs and my world and it's my worst nightmare that people feel awkwardly pressured into a reaction. Again, not fishing here, this is a real fear. (I have a couple of mental issues that make me super afraid I'm getting on people's nerves.) And progress? Hm. Nah. Maybe the beginnings of it, in such small quantities that I hardly see them myself. I'm unsure how to handle all these doubts in the future. For page visitors, this is not a big deal, but for myself, it can keep me awake at night.
February/March was "Resistance Month" where I introduced some secondary characters that are on the good side, which was tons of fun regardless of the meh outcome of the pics. The rest of the year again belonged to the villains. I actually dared to upload some harmless smutty stuff, too. Towards the end of the year, I finished few pictures but sketched a lot.
During the year,I took up regular daily sketching again, even though I never showed any of that. As a result, I got faster at drawing digitally, and I made some minimal progress on my chosen problems like faces from different angles.
Well. So far for the positives. Now the negatives.
2017 was also the year where I really embraced the fact that I suck. No, this is not fishing for compliments, it's a coping mechanism. I know that it'll take me hundreds more practice pics to get anywhere resembling satisfying art. If I upload something, it's just 100KB more of bad art on FA, nothing to break a sweat over. And still - whenever I upload, that's the second from which on I can no longer stand to even look at the picture. I'm realistic about where I stand but I feel sooo emotionally vulnerable all the same. Like it's really too early for me to put the stuff out there, and more than once I was shortly before pulling everything from 2016/17 offline or stopping uploading until I reach a better level. The worst thing, I feel so stupid and borderline autistic ranting about my OCs and my world and it's my worst nightmare that people feel awkwardly pressured into a reaction. Again, not fishing here, this is a real fear. (I have a couple of mental issues that make me super afraid I'm getting on people's nerves.) And progress? Hm. Nah. Maybe the beginnings of it, in such small quantities that I hardly see them myself. I'm unsure how to handle all these doubts in the future. For page visitors, this is not a big deal, but for myself, it can keep me awake at night.
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Wieder ein tolles produktives Jahr :)
Zu deinen Worten am Schluss: Das alles kommt mir sehr bekannt vor. Man läd etwas hoch, schreibt etwas dazu, was man sich selbst ausgedacht hat, und der Moment, wo man drauf guckt und denkt "...und Leute wollen das wirklich lesen...?" - Ja! Auf jeden Fall! Ich freue mich immer, wenn wieder etwas von dir in den Messages erscheint und lese sehr gerne über deine Geschichten und Charaktere. Deine Angst kann ich absolut nachvollziehen, dass man stetig das Gefühl hat, andere Leute zu stören und zu nerven, und ich kann hier nur aus meiner Warte schreiben, aber mich störst du auf keinen Fall und ich schreibe gerne etwas zu deinen Bildern :)
Selber den eigenen Fortschritt zu erkennen ist schwer. Ich finde, vor allem die Posen deiner Charaktere haben über die letzten Jahre einiges an Lebendigkeit hinzu gewonnen, ein großes Maß an "in motion", das ist klasse.
Ich hoffe, dass du dich auch nächstes Jahr weiterhin traust, zu zeichnen und deine Bilder zu zeigen, aber wenn es dir nicht gut tut, solltest du dich auch nicht dazu genötigt fühlen. Es soll alles eine Motivation bleiben, kein Zwang.
Zu deinen Worten am Schluss: Das alles kommt mir sehr bekannt vor. Man läd etwas hoch, schreibt etwas dazu, was man sich selbst ausgedacht hat, und der Moment, wo man drauf guckt und denkt "...und Leute wollen das wirklich lesen...?" - Ja! Auf jeden Fall! Ich freue mich immer, wenn wieder etwas von dir in den Messages erscheint und lese sehr gerne über deine Geschichten und Charaktere. Deine Angst kann ich absolut nachvollziehen, dass man stetig das Gefühl hat, andere Leute zu stören und zu nerven, und ich kann hier nur aus meiner Warte schreiben, aber mich störst du auf keinen Fall und ich schreibe gerne etwas zu deinen Bildern :)
Selber den eigenen Fortschritt zu erkennen ist schwer. Ich finde, vor allem die Posen deiner Charaktere haben über die letzten Jahre einiges an Lebendigkeit hinzu gewonnen, ein großes Maß an "in motion", das ist klasse.
Ich hoffe, dass du dich auch nächstes Jahr weiterhin traust, zu zeichnen und deine Bilder zu zeigen, aber wenn es dir nicht gut tut, solltest du dich auch nicht dazu genötigt fühlen. Es soll alles eine Motivation bleiben, kein Zwang.
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