I opened Zbrush for the first time in ages, today. My attention span was so short I could barely get this pic done before I was completely out of concentration, but hey, it's a start? Maybe...

I thought I was improving, but now all I want to do is sleep all the time. I'm still trying. I'm sorry for those whose notes I haven't answered. Anxiety levels are beyond high right now and it's difficult to face much of anything. I desperately need money, and I desperately need to make the art I owe to people, but...I'm just so tired.

It takes everything i have to be a Mom, and I don't even manage that very well right now. Thank goodness my husband is so helpful. I'm there for my kids, but I can't really say much more.

I feel like a druggy, anxiously waiting for my next appointment to see if the next pill will help where this one didn't. I've also just started a keytone diet to see if maybe blood sugar control will help (and hopefully lose some of these extra pounds). I need a change, I need a break, I need out of this house for a while...but I don't see any of that coming any time soon.

I've gotta do it, and I will. I'm just so tired.

But I'm still trying.