I feel trapped

I think to myself
The tension won’t leave
Trapped with the absurdity of my illogical fears

I sit and ponder
There’s no sense to the feelings
Thinking I’m rational as I create false problems

I’m social yet constantly distracted
Others drop conflicts in minutes that stress me for days
Wondering when they’ll be sick of me and I ruin everything

I want to create
But there’s little self-motivation

My future is planned
Yet little action is carried out

I’m nervous
Need to hide until the anxiety passes
Everything I’m saying is bothering others
Or maybe it’s not
But I’m awkward
And I’m scared about imperfection

Physically in silence
Thoughts of minor creations that I can’t do
Wanting traces of my life to make some basic impact

There’s no sense to the stress
Frequent nervousness
Selective obsessive-compulsiveness
Overblowing things out of proportion
Terrified of inevitable conflict

Irrational
Upset at myself
But mostly... internally exhausted

I feel trapped

(I’m bad at poetry, but I figured that it would fit this drawing better than what I usually do where I write a cheesy description from Mello’s perspective. Mello’s fine, by the way, this is just a visual representation of his active anxiety; he’ll eventually calm down later, I'm sure.)

This extremely lovely and detailed drawing is from a fantastic artist who goes by Babe Magnet; they captured Mello’s serious side perfectly, accurately drew his really specific details, and I absolutely adore the art style. Please check out their other art and commission them too! Thank you so much to the artist, and also thanks to anybody who read my silly poem.

Artist’s Fur Affinity:  BabeMagnet

Artist's submission page: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26902303/