Living with Schizoaffective Disorder is like a battle over yourself, you hear voices everyday they fill your mind with things that aren't true but you can't decipher the truth making you self doubt yourself. Eventually your willpower can't handle it and you make a mistake that can cause great shockwaves that can be felt for years, I know I made similiar mistakes and I regret them, but hearing these voices on a daily basis makes it hard to decide whats true and whats not, you can't think properly or think straight because all you hear is the voices, no reason no conscious nothing just the voices, and its never ending battle because it effects your emotions because it can spike at random times whether you're angry or sad it can spike leading to depression and near suicidal thoughts.

This picture describes what I go through everyday, Its a struggle to fit in with groups especially with friends you know because the voices in my head keep filling with "You'll never fit in" over and over, It makes me self doubt myself and depressed because all I want to do is fit in with my friends able to feel happiness once more. However the voices get loud and annoying and it hurts myself knowing that one of these days Im going to snap and regret it all over again.