I love sleeping, but I'm not looking forward to dreaming. My dreams are often about rejection and generally feeling uncomfortable, ignored, and disrespected. This dream was no different, but funny enough to turn into a drawing. (Also, I had the whole digital lineart done in the same layer for sketchy style experiment.)

I dreamed I lived in a small house and owned a cat and a small dog (I don't know what breed, I just had that knowledge that they were around the house somewhere). Then some random people came into my house, saying something like "We gotta drop off this LION in your house real' quick until we find a place for him (zoo or whatever). You can take care of him, right?" Of course I replied something like "UH, WHAT? NO! I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO TAKE CARE OF A LION! I DON'T EVEN KNOW THE LION, AND HE DOESN'T KNOW ME! HE'LL ATTACK AND EAT ME!" and so on. But they completely ignored me, opened the cage, let the lion enter my house, locked the door and then left me alone with him.

I was sitting on the couch frozen in fear for my life, with this BIG ASS LION lying directly at my side. He put one or both of his giant front paws on my lap, and was extremely close to my face with his BIG ASS MOUTH and BIG ASS TEETH. (I believe he was even larger than real life lions already are.) And he started talking to me with typical lion growling sounds, pretty much directly into my ear. Which scared me even more because it was loud and also didn't sound friendly at all. I couldn't tell whether he was hungry, or angry, or whether me not understanding him made him even angrier. I was expecting to be killed and eaten any second. Then I woke up.

The other day I told this story to a friend of mine and she said maybe that's how your totem animal reveals itself to you. Ehhh. Usually, people have positive stories like; getting in a trance state and then peacefully wandering around with their animal, and also actually understanding what they're telling them. Or having them as a companion during a rebirth process, or being comforted by them during a sad time. Me, no. Fearing for my life and being angrily and loudly grawled at, thank you very much. My subconsciousness insists on being a special snowflake of quadruple bullshit. "Yoooo, we have a heavily insecure PTSD person here. Let's put a loud, pissed off, giant man-eating predator in his face!"

Anyway, later I read that a lion as dream symbol could also mean that you got authority issues. Which would make more sense on me. I only wish my brain was less scary about the execution of that message.