This piece reminds me of when I distance myself from people of my own will because I feel like I'm annoying, in the way, or a burden. Even though it was my choice, I feel devastatingly alone and hurt, as if those close to me were the ones who pushed me away.
I know it's my own fault, and I don't actually blame my loved ones. But I can't help but feel like I wish they would have done something to stop me, and somehow magically remove all of my self depreciating thoughts so that I can simply exist happily by their sides.
I feel weak for not knowing how to fix my unhappy thoughts on my own.

Just...loss.

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Please excuse my tardiness in responding. It has taken me a bit to gather the courage to write and share this. I saw this image about the same time that I found out that generation four of MLP was, most likely, not going to be running for much longer. This picture captured the anticipatory sadness that I had, knowing I was going to have a pony shaped hole in my life when things wound down. The feathers and soft lighting make me thing that while the main part of what has been so important to me may leave I will still have the good friends and memories I have made due to being part of the fandom. It makes me think with hope on the possibility that many of us will be around for generation five and the herd will come back together again with new friends and adventures to look forward to.