Even though comments have been discouraged... I just gotta say, it's pretty cool! I like the setting & character!

i knw you dont want to talk and that these are discouraged... but you are my monster and i know how it feels to be down so low. i hope that if you need anything, you would come to me cause i'm always here for you. <3

Thank you. That meant alot.<3

no big hunni <3

dont worry, things will get better. i suffer through the same shit every day. but you are better than that. i wish i could be there in person to help you out. i dont like when others are in pain.

i know you probably dont want to hear it

but effectively what i said on dA............

before i bawl my eyes out again, i just wanted to say how moving this picture is

i hope , one day, you find happiness, its not fair the shit you go through and it pains me to be a witness and not being able to do anything more than to fucking write to you on the fucking internet!

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i dont know what else to say, except, that im sorry, for not being able to be there and comfort you not matter how gay that sounds.....

You seem like a really nice person, so you don't deserve to have to go through whatever it is you're going through. You seem like someone who'd be a good friend. I think if your friends aren't paying attention to you, it doesn't mean you're a bad person, it means you have bad friends.

Be proud of who you are. Consider the qualities you possess that others don't. What makes you special/unique?

I can't remember if I've tried to plug the works of Ayn Rand to you yet. xD But her book Atlas Shrugged changed how I think of everything and left me feeling prouder than ever. It also lead me to pursuing more knowledge about Ayn Rand's philosophy of Objectivism, and it is gradually making me a prouder, happier person. I recommend reading it.

Man. It wasn't too long ago that I felt like you. I actually attempted suicide and it sucked! I swallowed, mostly benidrel, and I was drugged off my ass. I was wobbling and eventually I told my dad what had happened and he was shocked and told me to get ready so he could take me to the hospital. I was too out of it to care. I'm at the hospital and they're intaking me and when they asked me how long ago I did this I couldn't remember so they had me go into a bed and they told me to drink charcoal, stuff to soak up the drugs I swallowed, and they wanted me to drink water until I had to pee. I drank a gallon of water and I still couldn't pee. They eventually stuck a cathiter in my dick so I could get out the liquids I drank. They stuck it up to my bladder and liquids were draining out, btw a tube being stuck up my dick hurt, still feel it when I urinate. A doctor was discussing that the combination of pills I took kept me from having a seizure, the OD on Benirel could have caused me to spasm, but the Depakote I took saved me. I had to have a tube in my arm so it would run salt water through my system until the pills came out of my body. I had to do 3 bags of these. Eventually they pulled out the tube from my penis and I didn't feel it, later I did (haha), and I had finished my bags they transfered me to a rehab place where I had to stay there until they saw it fit to put me back with my dad. I take my pills regulerly so I don't have this problem anymore. But my advice is, you're better off not doing pills, which seems like a good idea, but most likely you'll survive and have body dyfunctions for the rest of your life. After I got out of the rehab and with my dad I heard that one of my older brother's friends had shot himself in the head after his girlfriend dumped him. They held his funeral a week later and my older brother bought him a cap to cover up his head so they wouldn't see his head.

If you think killing yourself is a good idea, then it's because you don't care how it'll impact others. There's always people that care about you no matter how gloomy and dark it may seem. I saw that when I was recovering from my suicide attempt.

There was another time when I was thinking about dying, but I thought about how I'd do it, and I told myself, "Well I'm not doing pills again, lesson learned." When I got to thinking there's not really much choices when doing something like that, that could be ending in a painless death, in fact I think the only way to have a painless death is by leathal injection. They make sure of that when they kill people at prisons. So I decided to go against it, and after I made that decision I felt happy again.

Depression is a temporary feeling, like any other feelings. It'll go away eventually. Just fight it!

Wow 15 year old self
What a whiny lil bitch