To all of my watchers.


This will be the last publication.
I am not the kind of people who make "complains" to ask help or suicide but you have to know few things..
I am not and I'll not be there to make publicity or fake publications..

Sinze 7 mounth that I can't bear a broken relation ship.
I fought for weeks and months, I prayed his return. Stubborn as I am, I couldn't let him forget me.
I fully destroyed myself. I destroyed my body, my inner body and I also destroyed my mind.

I fought for my mental, I fought for my days in depression. I surely became mad or something.

I wasn't alright all of these months.
I fought and I was ready to punch some idiots who was saying that their broken relation were more dramatic than mine.
I fought for all of these guys who was insulting him.
I starved myself and I destroyed myself for this guy. It's not a "chantage" or something else. I really loved him.
I still passionate but I am also desesperate to death.

This shit is burning my body and destroying my mind.
I know for now he'll never come back and I am sure it's too late.

I don't even care about those who'll say that this drawing is not allowed for the maturity rating.
But I don't care... I am tired...

I am so tired to fight for every thing.
Too much things are changing or appearing.
All I want is not possible.

I am tired of this.
I am tired of crying for help from deaf people.
I am tired of praying
I am tired of fighting.
I am tired of defending others.

I ask nothing more.

No more art.
I am just tired of all of this.
I don't beg for your pity at all.
I don't beg for your help.
I just want you to know that some people can be assholes to be deaf.
I just want you to know that being passionate for somebody can destroy yourself for nothing.
I just want you to be careful but it's too late for myself.

I will not fight evere more.
I never hated him.
I never wanted him to go far away.

I am just tired of all of this...
I broke my body, my mind and my life.
I failed few exams, I failed university and for what?

Somebody I used to love and that blocked me.
I don't even care about reactions..
I guess that if he really loved me he'll care about but it's not the case.

I fought for people that don't care and maybe don't deserve this.
I broke my motivations, I broke some of my dreams, I broke many frienship, I broke so many things for love.
Love is nonsense.

Seeing couples made me suffer too much.
I didn't stop ask for help or his attention to express my despair.
Those things didn't touched him..
But now I am too tired to continue..

Sorry for all of these guys.
But you deserve more that what I draw.
You deserve more than that...

I am too tired..