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oh bOI another vent, woag get your shit together you fuckin' crybaby.
Okay okay, here comes the complaining about my life.
My mind is always a war between different thoughts, making me a complete mess. I just can't keep my thoughts under control.. No matter what people tell me, I can't help but think low of myself and that I have to do better.
Even if people tell me I'm pretty, later I can't help but look into a mirror and go "What an ugly bitch."
I know it's not good - obviously, but I can't fix it. I try to make myself look better in my eyes, by say looking back at my older art and seeing how I improved, dyeing my hair to a colour I like etc. and it does help at least a little bit. But the fact I'm too vulnerable makes it difficult, basically anything can make me feel worse and it's not easy to get back to my state before, so I have to try and stay strong..
However, the most important to me is keeping these problems hidden from my family and people that could tell my parents, I don't need them to worry about this while I'm still in an acceptable (I suppose) state.
At least I'm not having suicidal thoughts though, so I'd say I'm okay..
The drawing was inspired by this song https://youtu.be/heQ0-udfIOw
I love you Icon For Hire,,,
Okay okay, here comes the complaining about my life.
My mind is always a war between different thoughts, making me a complete mess. I just can't keep my thoughts under control.. No matter what people tell me, I can't help but think low of myself and that I have to do better.
Even if people tell me I'm pretty, later I can't help but look into a mirror and go "What an ugly bitch."
I know it's not good - obviously, but I can't fix it. I try to make myself look better in my eyes, by say looking back at my older art and seeing how I improved, dyeing my hair to a colour I like etc. and it does help at least a little bit. But the fact I'm too vulnerable makes it difficult, basically anything can make me feel worse and it's not easy to get back to my state before, so I have to try and stay strong..
However, the most important to me is keeping these problems hidden from my family and people that could tell my parents, I don't need them to worry about this while I'm still in an acceptable (I suppose) state.
At least I'm not having suicidal thoughts though, so I'd say I'm okay..
The drawing was inspired by this song https://youtu.be/heQ0-udfIOw
I love you Icon For Hire,,,
Category Artwork (Digital) / Other Music
Species Dinosaur
Size 960 x 1280px
File Size 141.5 kB
Hello. I don't know if I have any right to say this, but I know what you're going through, to an extent. I am facing my own darknesses these days. Trying to get better, trying to get clear of the turmoil beneath the surface. There are good days, okay days, not good days, and bottom of the ocean day where all the weight is crushing you down into nothing. Conflicting thoughts. You know better, feel better ways, but something else just squishes it, beats it up until you don't know which way is up. Like you're suffocating. And every time you want to talk about it to someone like family that doesn't understand and doesn't bother to, it hits you deeper. For me, it has caused me to form what feels like a lump in my throat whenever I try to talk about my thoughts. I think I shouldn't think a certain way, shouldn't feel down, or angry, or sad, or disappointed because of this, that, and the other thing. And every time I try to open up, get to that better feeling place, where I know I want to be, these dark creatures in me pull me back into the depths. I lose myself again. I want you to know, you're not alone. You are amazing, even if you don't feel that way. The artwork you made for me is stunning. The people I've shown it to say the same. A talented artist. You will have my support no matter what. I will say this once, you're awesome.
I'm not so good at words, but you're more than you think your fantastic works are so deep, don't late your thoughts take the control of who you are, make something for where you can hold when the darkness wants you, that is what I do when I feel like I don't belong to this world, the music is a good way but it can hurts too sometimes.
Blo I hope those words helps you, seeing the music inspire you and give you strength I recommend you Illenium, https://youtu.be/SL_-RqReveA is a really good song.
Be strong blo you still have future, you have hope.
Blo I hope those words helps you, seeing the music inspire you and give you strength I recommend you Illenium, https://youtu.be/SL_-RqReveA is a really good song.
Be strong blo you still have future, you have hope.
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