Join the anti-social social club. ♥

Was there a specific incident that made you feel this way, or have you felt this way for a while? I'd like to hear about it if you're willing to share.

A while. Because I know that pieces of media that leave a strong impression on me can act as a powerful driver for creations (remember my mechanical-dragon-things? You can 100% thank the How To Train Your Dragon soundtrack for that).
And I know I'm not getting any from human relationships. Trust, love and affection are all unfamiliar feelings for me, only a perpetual grey fog of anxiousness and dread. And that doesn't make for the kind of energies I want burning in my metaphorical furnace of creativity

Do you have a therapist you can broach your doubts about human relationships to? I know you mentioned your doctor working with you to find the right combination of antidepressants, but a chronic woe like this likely won’t go away with medications alone.

I’m sorry that I can only read your thoughts on the matter. I don’t think I can do anything more meaningful for you without being familiar with you as a person.

Em... if you feel that "human relationship" important to whole people you see, it would become better. Otherwise, maybe you hadn't find "your" human?